Kalani's Keiki's

Where can I turn for PEACE??

2011-03-01T17:16:00.000-08:00

Where can I turn for peace? That is the theme of most of my days lately. The things of the world can be so discouraging, so negative, so hopeless. I have found that the ONLY place I can feel total and complete peace is in the house of the Lord. The temple. The holiest of all places. I walk in those beautiful doors and instantly relax. My problems seem lighter, my burdens feel a little less weighty. I commune with my Heavenly Father. I can be close to those on the other side of the veil. I can be still and hear the whisperings of the Spirit. I have made it a goal to go every week. I was on my way to the temple 2 weeks ago talking to my friend on the phone and was informed the temple was closed for cleaning!! I did not know this!!! I was dressed and literally on my way. So, I wasn't able to go for 2 weeks and boy did I feel it!! I have grown to love going every week. I hope I can continue to go every week. I need to go every week. I need to be at peace so I can go on with life. The temple is truly a blessing. Heaven on Earth

I have been in denial...

2010-12-15T13:09:00.000-08:00

How did this happen? How could this child of mine be 16 already? I really don't understand where the time went. It seems like it was literally just yesterday I was pregnant with her. My first. My miracle baby. It took almost 8 years to get her here. She was an emergency C-Section, she was the greatest Christmas gift I've ever received. What a life this little girl has had. It is my greatest hope that if asked she would say she has had a great life. There have definitely been some bumps along the way. But there have been WONDERFUL times, too. Just like everyone's life. UPS AND DOWNS. But I hope we have been able to give her a good life. She is so fun. She is so passionate about things that she cares about. She could debate you til you just want to give in. She can make you smile on your worst day. She can make you want to pound your head against the wall, she can make you want to scream at the top of your lungs....BUT she can also make you laugh when you didn't think you could, she could make you cry tears of joy when she performs, she can make you think, she will talk to you for hours---just to talk. She can brighten the room when she walks, runs, or crawls in. She will always help you when you are in need. She will always sit by you in the lunch room. She will always give you a hug. She will always try to be your friend. She will always serve others.

I cannot believe this little girl is 16. I just really cannot believe it. I have been in denial that this day would actually come. But somehow it snuck up on me. I treasure everyday with her. She is such an important part of my life. I adore her. I cherish her. I am in awe that my Father in Heaven loves me so much that He allowed her to be in my life. I love her. Happy Sweet 16, My Sweet Pineapple Princess.

How many marshmellows can you stuff in your mouth? 21 for this girl!!

Hula dancer.....

**notice the mismatched socks in above picture. DRIVES ME CRAZY!

My favorite pose of her....

Being wierd and crazy...

HAPPY, HAPPY SWEET 16!!!

What did he just say?

2010-11-30T18:58:00.000-08:00

Seeing the date of the last entry I am reminded just how busy life is. I wish I could blow my whistle & call a time out. WHOA. Where has the time gone? I just wanted to quickly blog this entry before I totally forget.

A few minutes ago I was in the laundry room switching laundry. I heard Kawehi & JAG talking in the kitchen....this is how it went.

Kawehi: "JAG did you eat the taco salad at school today for lunch?"
JAG: "Yes...wasn't it sooooo good?"
Kawehi: "Yes, it was the best lunch EVER!!"
JAG: "We need to get the receipe, so mom can make it!"

This just CRACKED me up. What 7 yr. old BOY talks about getting a receipe? This warmed my heart on a very cold snowy day. Thanks kiddos for constantly warming me up. I LOVE YOU!!

What a weekend....

2010-10-04T13:13:00.000-07:00

We were super busy last weekend. But it was FUN busy. I got pictures of some of our fun....I missed out on pictures on some of the events but you will understand after you hear of the craziness!! My older brother, Kevin and nephew Cody came into town on Tuesday. Kevin's son, Derek, was coming home from his mission on Thursday so they were in town for the welcome home celebration. My mom flew in on Thursday. We went to the airport at 11:30 p.m. My kids loved being out so late. It was Derek's b'day that same day so we made "Welcome home" and "Happy B'day" signs for Derek. Our excitement grew as we waited for his arrival. Another Elder in a neighboring ward was in the exact same mission as Derek and they came home together. It was so fun to see them both come thru the doors in their Sambreros (I have no idea how to spell that word). After being at the airport awhile we all came back to my house for cake, ice cream, stories and sleep. Derek was so exhausted!!! It is so good to have him home. However, he quickly went on a road trip to Vegas and Az. He will be settling here....so we are waiting patiently for him to return. But throughout all of this celebrating we also had: football practice, soccer practice, doctor appts., work, shopping, making signs, homework, our sliding door was broken by the landscape guys a week earlier--so it was getting fixed as well. We had friends coming and going, we laughed. I had some good talks with my brother. A lot of smiles. Hugs. Grandma--that is all I have to say...Grandma. I love my mom so much. I miss her everyday. We had football & soccer games. We had food storage shopping deals. We went and got pumpkins with grandma. We drove. We laughed. We loved. I have a plaque hanging on my wall that I love and it is a constant reminder..."The most important thing is Family"...I think the reason why it means so much to me is because, Walt Disney said it. I love it. In all of the craziness of the world we need to remember....the most important thing is FAMILY. I love my family. I am grateful for every second I get to spend with all of them!!! What a weekend. What a glorious time in my life!!

Pineapple Princess is in the bottom left hand corner, short blond hair. They sang the National Anthem at her high school homecoming. Brings tears to my eyes. I love listening to her choir.

This is red velvet cake from Costco. My mom and I went shopping and they were demo'ing it that day. Oh, my gosh---so YUMMY. I walked away and said to my mom, "I am going to walk away from this cake. I cannot buy it". Ya know, thinking I would gain a million pounds. That little smarty pants turned around and walked back, saying, "Ok, I will get it then!!" So, as you can see we got it. We ate it. I have gained a million pounds. But what a way to do it. You have to get this cake!!! You won't be sorry.

Derek and the gang. Remember, this was probably taken close to midnight. I guess Monkey Boy was tired.

Waiting for Derek. 3 big kids w/Grandma. I guess Monkey Boy was starting to get tired.

I forgot to rotate this before I imported it. But, oh, did I mention we had a bird with us as well? My brother brought his bird, Sidney. My kids loved him. What fun. Now they want one. Thanks, Kevin. Just what we need...a bird to add to the craziness!!!

Our weekend ended with General Conference. It is so humbling to hear from our leaders. My hubby and I especially loved the talk by Larry Lawrence (who names their kids like that) because he spoke to the parents of teenagers!!! Loved it all. How blessed we are to have our leaders speak to us. I had to take my mom to the airport. I cried. I still cry every time I leave her. I love her so much. Just wish we lived closer.

What a weekend. We had a busy last 3 days. The kids are out of school tomorrow and Friday, so we can take a deep breath. And then it will start again. Love it. Have a great weekend.

J.O.Y.

2010-09-07T16:03:00.001-07:00

This is the face of what JOY looks like. I love looking at my kids when they are seeing something that brings JOY to them. This picture almost invokes tears in my eyes....Oh, to be child-like!!

This is what brought such JOY to this little guy.....

We went to the balloon launching at a local park early last Saturday morning. We left our house at 5:45 A.M. Daddy made hot chocolate and we even had to wait for the donut shop to open. It was ton's of fun. We were "right there" watching the operators blow the balloons up and get them ready to launch. It was AMAZING. As evidenced above my kids LOVED it!!

4th of July @ Grandma's....PARTY!!

2010-08-19T11:02:00.000-07:00

Four of my kiddos and I went to Las Vegas for a week. We were there over the 4th of July Holiday. Grandma and the Mc Coys know how to party and have fun--no matter what we are doing. My brother Kevin and his fiancee and her kids were there too. We ate. We played games. We did fireworks. We danced. We swam. We hung out. We laughed. We made memories. One of my favorite things to do is just sit around talking and laughing with my mom, my sis, my brothers, my brother in law, my sister in laws, my kiddos, my nieces and nephews. I am not kidding there aren't any others funnier or crazier than these folks.!! SO MUCH FUN. I love making memories with my loved ones.

This is JAG. He literally fell asleep on his hands just like this....he was wiped out every night we were there. Isn't this funny?
Here is JAG, Pineapple Princess, Monkey Boy & Kawehi. Can't remember what was wrong w/little miss Kawehi...but look at that face!!!

Here is my mom. She is the greatest Grandma--EVER. Her favorite song is "Empire State of Mind" by Jay Z and Alicia Keys. Here she is "raising the roof." Most hilarious thing I have ever seen. She is the COOLEST!!! The kids think she is "cool like that". Dat's G, G'ma!!

One of the things we did @ G'ma's....was....I am ashamed to say learn how to play poker and 21. Well, what do you expect...we were in Las Vegas. All the big kids played and had fun. We didn't allow "real" money. But the above picture is of Pineapple winning the "whole pot". Imagine how rich we would be if she was at the 'tables' down on the strip. It was so funny to hear the kids talk "gambling lingo". It was all in good fun.

This is Pineapple on the first night of Poker 101. She looked totally confused. But I think it is her Poker face.....cuz she cleaned house eventually. I think she made everyone think she didn't know what she was doin'....they let their guard down and she came in and swooped up the whole pot. Way to go, Pineapple!!

Good times. We always have so much fun at Grandma's. She spoils us. She is the most amazing person. I love my mom so very much. I miss her everyday. My sister and her family are so fun to hang with. She has kids the same as mine so, we always love hanging out. The day of TCIG's accident my brother-in-law rearranged his schedule and drove us all the way back to Boise so I wasn't by myself. We got to the hospital at 2:30 a.m. and then he drove my kids home so Kalani and I could stay at the hospital. Then Brandon was at the airport by 1:00 p.m. to fly back to Las Vegas. I can't thank him enough for all that he did for us. And my mom. And my sister. As I get older the definition of family becomes clearer to me. They are simply people who are always there for you NO MATTER what. They are people who will do anything to help. They are people who love you UNCONDITIONALLY!!!

R.I.P. Kitchen Aid Mixer.....

2010-08-11T14:13:00.000-07:00

This is my Kitchen Aide Mixer. Or at least it was. I have a great love for this mixer. I know some of you will not understand my great love and admiration for this piece of equipment. But let me explain. I have had this mixer for close to 17 (yes I said 17) years!!! It took me FOREVER to save up the $$$ needed to buy my mixer. You can't imagine the joy I felt when I went to the store and put all my money on the counter that long ago day. It was like I was a little kid with all my pennies to buy a toy. I had that mixer before I had kids. I used it almost DAILY. It went to Hawaii and back with me. I still have stuff in storage in Hawaii but not my mixer...it flew on the plane with me. I used it, then cleaned it---it almost looked brand new. (except for this picture--because it is in the garage graveyard--it isn't as clean) I baked yummies for my family, my friends, my visiting teaching ladies. Every holiday season we had many days together. Like my hubby takes the kids out of the house so I can bake all day...just me & the mixer kind of days. But it is no more. The Sunday before I left for girls camp I was mixing up my last batch of cookies and then IT happened.....(you might need tissue after this story--heehee) So this is how it went: I was stressed. too much to do not enough time. I had had a very stressful couple of months of leading to this point. It was hot. I was sweaty. I was trying to get everything ready for camp. The kids were kind of cranky. Hubby stressed with homework. etc. etc. Anyway, JAG my youngest son had left the chocolate milk powder out on the table. I asked him to put it away. (the HUGE container from Costco) He put the lid on and the then stepped back to put it into the pantry. Well.....he stepped without looking and tripped on a bag of trash someone had put there..he dropped the chocolate milk powder..which we quickly realized he didn't tighten the lid enough...so brown powder FLEW everywhere in my kitchen, he is yelling my name as he was falling backwards onto the trash bag. I turned. In a quick second I had to decide.....Help my son or help my mixer. I didn't have time to turn it off. My mixer lost. I will always help my kids...(heehee or at least hope I will). Well in THAT exact moment I lept to help JAG the big silver knob on my mixer fell off, into the cookie mixture and tripped up the beater causing it to jam the motor. There you have it. The end of my mixer!! I know...the tears. I actually did shed tears. I was so stressed..this massacre put me over the edge. I realized our days of baking were over. I am not even kidding. I lost it. This mixer was my saving grace. When I couldn't afford to buy treats for my kids I made them. We made so many brownies, rolls, cookies, cakes, holiday treats for friends and the ward members. It was with me thru a divorce, single mommy days, deaths of loved ones, summers, depression...everything!!! I loved my mixer sitting clean and shiny on my counter. My mixer was the first thing set on every counter of every house we lived in. Now it is gone. When my kids saw me crying they thought something was "really" wrong. They ran and got dad..."Dad, come quick something is wrong with mom...she is crying". When Pineapple Princess found out why I was crying she couldn't beleive it was over my mixer. I tried to explain that it was the straw that broke the camels back....but she sees it as "mom is crying over her broken mixer". WHATEVER. It kinda is. But it was just the final thing. So, my mom has let me borrow her mixer. I just haven't had the heart to use it yet. I feel like I am cheating. But life goes on...right? I won't be getting a new mixer anytime soon. Now I have kids....I NEVER have extra money. It is not on the priority list. So...there you have it. {R.I.P. sweet mixer. I love you. I will remember you ALWAYS..} Thanks for the memories.

My life...Right now

2010-08-02T13:14:00.000-07:00

The summer is lazily passing me by....NOT!! It has been totally crazy here with my family!!! Here is an update:

Kalani finished summer school. That makes me happy. Not to mention his level of happiness. He has worked so hard all summer with school and work. He has had class 4 mornings aweek and 2 labs in the evening. I am so proud of him. Way to go, Kalani!!!

This is Pineapple Princess on the morning she left for the Stake Trek. Isn't she so totally cute? I am so impressed with her and her willingness to be a pioneer. My good friend, Jenn, made her pioneer clothes and did a marvelous job. Pineapple loved her trek experience and learned so very much. She loved her pioneer trek and now has a better idea of what the early pioneers went through. I love her. I adore her. I admire her enthusiasm for life. She is an example to me.

This is my oldest son, TCIG. On this very day I am so grateful that he is still in my life. He was in a farming accident back on July 9. He suffered greatly. This picture is of him in the ICU, the day after the accident. He is doing much better now. He spent 2 weeks in the hospital. He is healing pretty good for what he went through. Still has a ways to go....but he is ALIVE. He is healing. He is my son. He is my love. I thank my Father in Heaven for him (actually for all of my kiddos-but in light of what happened....)

This is Monkey Boy. He continues to have a fun summer. He has a best friend that invites him to go everywhere with him. He went to Scout camp and was busy with merit badges. He starts football in a week and is very excited. This is a picture of him in Las Vegas on July 4. We went to visit my mom and sister. Monkey Boy has a cousin his age and they had so much fun. Monkey Boy makes me laugh EVERYDAY!!! I love him. I love his humor. He is such a fun guy to hang out with.

This is Kawehi. She played catcher in her first season of Coach Pitch baseball. She loved it. She and JAG were on the same team. That girl can bat!!! It was fun to watch her play in her game. This little girl enjoys every minute of every summer day. She literally lives in her bathing suit and will play in the sprinklers, a pool, a pond, a stream, a lake etc. If it has water she is all over it!! We don't have a lot of "technical" toys so she and her little brother are forced to play outside...the old fashioned way. They play from early morning til 9:00 p.m. It doesn't get dark here until almost 10 at night. She touches my heart because she is like an old fashioned little girl.

This is JAG. In this picture he is wearing Pineapple's shoes...why? I don't know. He is just funny that way. Like his sister this little guy plays ALL day long. He loves running around without his shirt on and no shoes. He is about as brown as he can be. I am constantly reminding him to put his shoes on!!! He is always with a friend. Last Friday, was the rare occasion that his friends were all gone for the day. I thought he was going to die of boredom. He actually came and hung out with me. What a treat for me!!! We went and played WII--Just Dance. He cracks me up!!! He was dancing and singing and I laughed hysterically. What a perfect summer day...hanging out with my 7 yr old--dancing.

I cannot believe school starts in 28 days!!! My heart sings with joy. My kids actually look forward to school---not because they like school but because they get to see their friends. I feel bad we haven't done too many "fun" things as a family. I feel like my kids have been bored. I have busy with work, being at the hospital etc. The summer has just gone by so fast. I am so grateful for my kids and hubby. They have been patient. They have helped me. They have been my strength. They make me laugh. They make me smile. They love me. And because of that love I know I can get through anything.

Off to Girls Camp....

2010-06-28T05:22:00.000-07:00

I am heading out of town for the next few days......GIRLS CAMP!! Oh, what fun. I am going to help COOK. Should be a lot of fun. I am sure I will have pictures to post.

See ya!!

Do your kids do this?

2010-06-21T10:40:00.000-07:00

This is Pineapple Princess...my oldest child. She is 15 1/2 years old. Can you guess where she is sleeping? Yep...my bed. I am curious....do all kids gravitate towards their parents bed? All of my kids...all 5 of them always fall asleep in my bed, crawl into my bed to snuggle with me or Daddy or when we aren't home go into our bed. Kalani and I were gone on this Friday night and came home about 9:00 p.m. This is where we found our oldest kid.....all comfy cozy. What is it about a parents bed? I remember in the movie Home Alone the little boy goes running into his parent's room and ends up staying on his parent's bed the whole time he is home alone. Does it offer safety and protection? Does it make the bad day go away? What is it? Whatever the answer is I love it. I love that even my big kids still want to feel the comfort of being wrapped up in my arms or at least my blankets....

Friendship.....Part II

2010-06-08T10:12:00.001-07:00

Please see below for Friendship entry # 1...

So, to continue with all things Friendship. This lasagna was delievered to us with a note that said to have it on a night when we couldn't think about dinner plans. The Diet pepsi was given to me because I have friends that know me sooooo well. They know that Diet Pepsi is like the nectar of the Gods for me. I know it is so very bad for me....but man does it taste good. Heehee. Anyway, again I can only say Thank you to all of you who have gone out of your way to show love and grace upon me and my family. We can NEVER repay the kindness and love we have been given by all of you who constantly share your love, your friendship, your warmth with our family. I thank my Heavenly Father EVERYDAY for all of you.

Friendship.....Part I

2010-06-08T09:59:00.001-07:00

Without going into great details...My family and I have had a pretty rough time of late. It seems like the world as crashed down on our little family. It seems like the darts of the advesary are being shot directly into my home. On certain days I felt like giving up....I felt like there was no hope. I felt all alone. I felt like I couldn't take one more step forward. Then out of the blue I would receive a gift. The gift of friendship. Heavenly Father sent so many rescuers my way. Oh, how I love FRIENDS. Oh, how I love FAMILY. Oh, how I love the GOSPEL. My testimony has been strengthened. My hope has been renewed. I feel a little stronger. I feel loved. I feel blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. There aren't words to express my deep love and appreciation to all of you. These pictures show some of the flowers that were delievered to our home....to cheer us up. Aren't they beautiful?.....Just like those who delievered them!!! Thank you is all I can muster...I love you. You have touched my life in marvelous ways.

SERVICE

2010-05-07T09:59:00.001-07:00

This is the Ronald McDonald House here in Boise. It is an amazing place!! It is a beautiful place. The people who are in charge of this facility are wonderful!! Pineapple Princess and I have been there twice to serve. The RMH has a program where volunteers come into their kitchen and cook or bake anything you want to do. It is for the residents who can come and stay there while their children are sick and staying in the hospital that is right across the street. Last month we made chocolate chip cookies. We went yesterday and made dinner. Our family's favorite meal is a chicken casserole that my friend Adie gave me like 18 years ago. It is so yummy. When I was telling the project coordinator about the casserole she kept saying how 'comforting' it sounded. Comforting, I asked her? I didn't quite get what she was saying. She told me that the families that stay at the Ronald McDonald House are usually here because they have a baby in the NICU or a very sick child in the hospital and after a long day of stress and worry of being with these little ones all day, they can come to the house and get a hot 'comforting' meal and then try to get a goodnight's sleep. I never thought of it that way. I guess because I have had a baby in the NICU and I understand what that entails...it took on a whole new meaning to me. I may not be the biggest fan of McDonald's food...but I truly am grateful that the McDonald's Corporation gives sooooo much back to the community. It is an unbelievable set up that they have. There is soooooooooo much that is donated to the house from the community that this house can truly offer these families a HOME while they are here. They ask for a $10 a night donation but if a family cannot afford that then it's ok, they still get to stay there. They have rooms that are set up like little apartments. They have laundry rooms, they have a front room with a fire place; there is a library; a kids play room. I cannot describe how wonderful a place it is. I am so grateful that the community wants to help so much that the schedule is literally full to come in and cook. We are going again in a month and then in July we are going as a family and will make breakfast for the families on a Saturday morning. It brings me such peace to help others. I have been really stressed out lately and very 'woe is me'. But when I go into that home where so much 'good' is happening and do a little something to ease the burdens of others my spirit is lifted. My soul is fed. So, just like the chicken casserole is comforting to those who partake of it....preparing it for these sweet families comforts me. I truly believe the best way to overcome problems or burdens is to serve others. I have been reminded of that. I believe it. I wish I could bottle up the feelings I feel when I am there. Love. Peace. Stillness. Goodness. I can feel my Father in Heaven's love there. I know God lives. He blesses us everyday. I get to see a little bit of heaven when I serve others. For this, I am grateful.

LOCKS OF LOVE.....

2010-04-24T14:47:00.000-07:00

This is Miss Kawehi. Last week she decided she had enough of her long hair. It was getting to hard to brush and take care of. And not to mention how hot she was with her hair hanging on her. So...we researched the Locks Of Love program. We measured her hair and knew she had the 10 inches they required. So, off to the salon we went. We explained to her why people who have cancer would need a wig. She was touched. She kept asking us if a little girl who had cancer would get her hair. At first it was kind of hard for her to grasp. But a lady who was sitting in the waiting area and overheard us talk to the stylist stood up and told Kawehi how important what she was going to do was to those who are sick. She told us about her dear friend who was going thru chemotherapy. I think Kawehi finally understood. It was such a sweet experience for me to witness. She was excited!! I think she was still a little confused...when she went to school on Monday she told her teacher.." I have cancer so I got my haircut to make wigs to help others who are sick!!". Out of the mouths of babes. I love when my kids see a need to help others and don't mind making changes to help others. I learn so much from them. The pictures are in order backwards....I still can't figure this blog thing. The first picture is the end result....

The stylist got 3 bundles of 10 inches off Kawehi

1...2....3....here we go!!!

Miss Kawehi, a little Sweetheart......

My 3 Sons....

2010-04-15T09:49:00.001-07:00

We are blessed with 3 very healthy and happy sons....however, saying that out loud can sometimes bring on the havoc...heehee. So, our oldest son, TCIG, always seems to be in the wrong place at the wrong time....

He was in P.E. last week, playing Ultimate Frisbee when another kid tried to knock the frisbee out of his hand. Well, his thumb was hyper-extended all the way BACK and immediately bruised and swelled. One trip to the Urgent Care. One trip to the Pediatrician. One trip to the Orthopedic Specialist. Two sets of X-Rays.....ultimately he will be ok. But he has been in a lot of pain and has to wear this brace for another 2 weeks. He is out of his favorite class...P.E. for awhile, too. He has been a pretty good sport about the whole thing. He never complains--even when we know it is hurting. The good thing (if there is a good thing) is the injury was to his left hand..so at least he can still do homework. YEAH!!

This is Monkey Boy. And yes he is standing on top of our car. We are busy conducting Science projects here at our house. It seems we are always doing science projects!! He had to make balloons out of different size plastic and then drop them and compare how they did. Since Dad helped mostly with this project I am not quite sure what the outcome was. I just know there was a lot of cutting, tying of string, climbing on my car, dropping and timing the balloons, a lot of whining when it came time to type up the project...etc.

This is JAG. He just turned the magical age of 7 and his teeth are falling out!! He has lost 3 teeth in the last 2 weeks. It is so funny watching him try to eat. He is keeping the tooth fairy very busy. And he is so surprised when he wakes up and finds the $$ under his pillow. Luckily, the tooth fairy has been very generous and has left his teeth for his mommy to put in his scrapbook.

My 3 sons....so very different. So full of.....well something, on different days it is different stuff. But I love them. I marvel out their creativity. I laugh at their funny personalities. I admire them for their priesthood responsibilities. I feel so very blessed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAG!!

2010-04-04T12:47:00.000-07:00

Seven years ago, today, I gave birth to this wonderful little guy. JAG is 7 today. He has an extra special day because it is Easter and General Conference. He thought we weren't going to church today because it was his b'day. Heehee. Had to remind him it was General Conference. This little guy has been such a special addition to our family. I know our family would not be complete without him. He is the light of all of our lives. He loves life and enjoys every moment of his day. He laughs at everything. He has a totally hilarious funny side. He is compassionate. He is a daredevil enough to try new things. He loves to be outside. He loves riding bikes, scooters, skateboards. He loves camping. He loves swimming. He loves video games. He loves all things BOY. He loves his friends. He loves his family. He loves his Heavenly Father. My heart swells when I hear him sound out the words in the scriptures when we have family scripture study. I melt like butter when I have had a bad day and he gives me a hug and says or does something to make me laugh. I am renewed with hope when he tells me he loves me or that I am his best friend. He is the best!! We love you, JAG. Thanks for being in our family. Happy, Happy Birthday!!!

His FAVORITE gift.....a DS!!!

Up on my SOAP BOX....

2010-04-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

I normally try to stay pretty even keeled about things. I am opinionated and will always express my thoughts and opinions to my family and hubby. But enough is enough and I have to say this to all of society......

OK people WE need to WAKE up and realize how dangerous it is to NOT pay attention while driving!!!!!

I had to take my hubby to work this morning. On my way back to Star on one stretch of the road I noticed the following: a guy driving a work van-- texting!!! He had both of his hands on top of the steering wheel with his phone in between his fingers texting away. Can you beleive it?

Then just past this guy was a lady driving....as in moving forward towards me and she was putting her mascara on!! Truly--had her head turned so she could see her eyes up close and was DRIVING!!!

Then continuing down the road was a lady (mother--she had kids in the car) and she was talking on the cell phone, looking in the rearview mirror probably to deal with one of the kids and she totally swerved into my lane because she wasn't paying attention to the road.

Now, don't get me wrong I have been guilty of being busy on the phone while driving--just talking on it NOT texting, I have had to look back and check on my kids.... BUT c'mon!! It is getting out of hand. Maybe because my kids are getting to the age when they will be driving in the near future I am becoming my aware. Maybe because Oprah is doing a whole NO PHONE ZONE in the car thing I am becoming more aware. The reason doesn't matter. What matters is that I am becoming more aware and I am trying to put the phone down when I am driving. I pull over and then talk. I park. I am trying to change my habits. We all need to become more aware. Our cars can be weapons. Our cars can hurt others. Our cars can kill people. I couldn't live with myself if I hurt someone. I don't know how I would get through life if one of my loved ones was hurt or killed because someone else was being irresponsible on their phone. So let's wake up people. Let's put the phones down. I promise you there is NOT one phone call or text more important than other people's safety.

Well, I guess I will step down off my soap box now. Thanks for letting me vent. Now put the phone DOWN. And please understand that if you call me and I don't answer it may be because I am driving. Leave me a message and I will get back to you, ASAP. Thanks!!

Life is like a.....JUMP ROPE

2010-03-24T12:28:00.000-07:00

Have you heard this song by Blue October? It is so awesome. My sister, Cori, let me know about this fun song. It is downloaded on my cute yellow IPOD. It brings happiness to my soul. Not only is it a fun song to listen to, the message is uplifting. My favorite lines of the song.....

Life is like a jump rope...Up, down, up, down
It will get hard so remember life is like a jump rope
Don't be ashamed to cry
Watch all the negative go by
Keep pushing through it all
Don't lose yourself
Be strong
Don't give up hope

If you haven't heard this song...you need to. Search for it. Find it. It truly lifts my soul. I need to be reminded life is like a jump rope. There are ups. There are downs. It will and does get hard. But everything will work itself out. It is these times that I am reminded to give 'it all' to my Savior. I love that we are never alone. The mighty One, the Lord, our Savior is always there..just waiting for us to ask for His help. So start jumping......remember it will get hard, but just remember you are never alone. Be strong. Keep smilen'.

A Baptism, An Ordination and a Music Festival.....

2010-03-11T12:13:00.000-08:00

Our family had a VERY special day last Saturday, March 6, 2010. Kawehi was baptized by her daddy and then confirmed. She has been looking forward to her baptism day for sometime. We have had so many neat discussions with her about baptism and what it means to have the Holy Ghost--a marvelous gift. I am sure she was overwhelmed with what she was feeling. She cried. I know she felt the spirit. I cannot believe she is 8. Time is truly flying bye. I am trying to enjoy every moment of this little girl's life. She is a beautiful younglady. One of the things she treasured the most (besides the day itself) was that Grandma Lewis was here with us. My mom flew from Las Vegas to share this special time with our family. We always have so much fun with Grandma. It was a wonderful experience. I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for giving us these special ordinances to particpate in.

Kawehi, Daddy & Mommy

Kawehi & G'ma

The Gilbert Family & Grandma

An addition to Kawehi's Baptism we ordained Monkey Boy to the office of a Deacon. We had a "double special day". He turned 12 back on Feb. 12 but he wanted to wait for G'ma Lewis to be here, so he waited. He was ordained by his father and a few other special men in his life. He thought about who he wanted and then went and asked these special men to participate. After talking to a couple of them I know they were touched to be asked to participate. One was our former Bishop, one is currently in our Bishopric, two are close family friends, 2 of them were his previous scout leaders and his best friend's dad. I was reminded that when we are called to our callings in the church you just never realize the impact we may have on a life!! So, please, please, take your callings seriously. These special men have played a huge role in the life of my son. I am grateful for the priesthood. I am truly blessed to be married to a man who honors his priesthood and sets such a wonderful example to my sons.

Kalani, Monkey Boy and TCIG--I love these handsome guys.

After our busy morning at the Stake Center we then had to take TCIG to his music festival. He performed a solo and in an ensemble. He plays the trumpet (just like G'pa Lewis did) and loves it. He did an awesome job. I am so proud of him.

We had a very busy day last Saturday. But it was a wonderful day. I love "busyness" when we are participating in family events. I love the spirit we felt all day. I love that we were able to share it with my mom. I felt my dad's presence. I felt the Holy Ghost. I could feel my Father in Heaven's happiness that 2 of His children progressed in the gospel. My cup runneth over.

Projects.....Does anyone else have this?

2010-02-27T15:02:00.000-08:00

I was cleaning in my kitchen the other day and I looked around and saw the following...

This is JAG's valentine's day box. We had to make it at home. It was so fun creating this little box with my little guy. Thanks to my mom, the Cricut machine I received for Christmas made it especially easy and fun. JAG designed how he wanted it done. It was really fun to see his imagination at work.

When I saw the above, sitting on the counter I laughed out loud. Monkey Boy was working on his electrical merit badge and had to perform an experiment using an alternative source to conduct electricity. After researching "online" he discovered that a potato would conduct electricity with a nail, steel wool, and whatever else those metal things are called. But just seeing the potato sitting there with lot's of metal things popping out made me laugh. The kleenex is from a brand new box we had to empty for Kawehi's valentine box. We couldn't use the kleenex fast enough so we had to just take it out and it ended up on the counter. So this is my kitchen, full of projects, full of memories. Does anyone else have projects like this around their house? I love these types of projects. It reminds me of many times I worked with my parents on my own projects. I hope my kiddos will remember the times we have spent making projects with them. These memories are priceless.

Happy Birthday...post #2

2010-02-25T12:55:00.000-08:00

Here is Miss Kawehi...on her 8th B'day--TODAY!!

Her favorite gift..High School Musical School.....

Her favorite drink: Chocolate Milk for her special breakfast

Kawehi and her best friend JAG (her little brother)

Kawehi and her Daddy..her favorite person in the whole world!!

Daddy woke up early and made Little Princess her favorite breakfast...french toast, sausage, eggs and chocolate milk. Daddy goes to school on Thursday night so we decided to celebrate Kawehi's b'day in the morning.

Kawehi is so excited to get baptized! March 6 is the big day. G'ma Lewis is flying in to be here for her baptism, next Thursday and she cannot wait. She has been waiting for this special day for a long time. She has been preparing for this day for as long as I can remember. She is such a sweet little girl. These are some of her favorites: her family, riding her scooter, bogie boarding, the color pink, playing her DS game, pizza, Disney Channel, reading, jump rope club, playing with her brother JAG, listening to music with her big sis, dancing, Hula. She is so fun to hang out with. She giggles in her sleep and is usually happy. Kawehi adds so much sunshine to our family. She entered our family at the perfect time and she has been such a sweet blessing from day one. Happy Birthday, Sweet princess. We love you.

Happy Birthday.....Monkey Boy and Kawehi

2010-02-25T12:18:00.000-08:00

Since my last post we have had 2 special birthdays for 2 special kids. Monkey Boy turned 12 on the 12th and Kawehi turns 8 today!! These are very special b'days for the kiddos. Monkey Boy receives the priesthood and Kawehi gets baptized. We have been busy with b'day celebrations and interviews with the Bishop, preparing for baptism, preparing to receive the priesthood, holding Family Home Evenings about these special occasions, memorizing Articles of Faith to graduate from Primary etc. etc. SO BUSY!! But busy with GOOD things. We have been 'anxiously engaged' in learning and practicing gospel principals. I am so proud of these 2 kiddos for the decisions they are making to progress in the Gospel and to strengthen their testimonies. They are wonderful kids and they both add so much to our family. Here are some pictures to show their special day:

**To celebrate Monkey Boy's Birthday we took the family to an Idaho Steelheads (hockey) game. The kids' school had a special 'Family Night' package and it happened to be on his b'day so we took advantage of it. We each got a hot dog, chips & a drink with our ticket. Not too bad. We had a lot of fun....but I must admit I enjoy football or basketball over hockey. Of course the boys loved it because of the fighting..heehee

Kawehi, Courtney (best friend of Pineapple Princess) and Pineapple Princess
Daddy, TCIG and JAG lovin' the game

The group...JAG was upset about something

Monkey Boy and his best friend D.N. (despite the look on Monkey Boy's face--he really did have a great time. We have the hardest time getting him to smile)

There is my happy Monkey Boy, sitting in a chair made of hockey sticks.

Monkey boy is such a fun guy. He has a 'low-key' personality. He doesnt' need much to be happy. He is super funny, super laid back and will do what he can to help out. He loves his family. He is excited to be a Deacon. He is a happy boy even though most of the time he doesn't smile. I cannot believe he is 12 already. Time flies. Sometimes I don't like it. But I have to accept it. We love you so much, Monkey Boy. Thank you for being in our family.

**Since I can't figure out how to upload more than 5 or 6 pictures at a time I will have to upload Kawehi's pictures separately.

We are BACK!!!!!....

2010-02-04T14:54:00.001-08:00

Hello...We are back! I have missed blogging...I cannot believe it has been 2 months since my last post. How time flies. It has been a busy 2 months. Our family has been very busy..and crazy!!! The kids and I left Hawaii on Dec. 10 and flew to California to stay with my brother and his family. We had tons of funs with the Lewis Family. Then we drove to Las Vegas to my mom and sister. Had tons of fun with them all in Vegas. I was reminded that what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas..heehee. We spent Christmas in Vegas and loved every minute of it. Kalani flew to Vegas on 12/21. I missed him so much. I was so glad to have our family back together. We got into Star on 12/28. It snowed the night we got home. WE LOVED IT. We missed the snow so much. We are happy campers now. Here is a recap of our lives:

left Hawaii
landed in California
drove to Las Vegas (Nevada)
drove through Utah
arrived in Idaho
OK--that is 5 states and one ocean
Christmas and all the preparation for the holiday
made yummy treats
ate too many yummy treats
celebrated birthdays
celebrated the New Year in Idaho
BSU won the Fiesta Bowl--love it
enrolled 5 kids and 1 husband into school
changing addresses
waiting for mail to catch up to us
looking for a job
still looking for a job
loving the snow and the cold
just trying to get back into things and loving life

This is my 15 year old girl CS. I cannot believe how fast she is growing up. She got her hair done in Vegas and it made her look so grown up.
Here are the girls at the Kona Airport waiting for our flight. The Kona Airport is kind of old fashioned--you wait outside (under a rooftop) and then literally walk out onto the tarmac and climb the stairs into the airplane. My kids thought that was pretty funny.

JAG and Monkey Boy--looking so much alike, waiting at the airport.

All the kids with the candy leis, Dr. Fogel gave them. Thanks, Doctor!

TCIG doing what he does best....at the airport.....

at Grandma's....

Well that is a real quick snapshot of our lives. I am excited to be back in Idaho. We cannot wait to get into a routine. We cannot thank everyone enough that has helped us this last year. So many thank you's, so much love to give. Thank You or what they say in Hawaii..Mahalo.

.....10 YEARS!!!

2009-12-03T10:16:00.000-08:00

I am at work so I cannot add a picture to this post. However, I would be remorseful if I didn't put something up today. Kalani and I were married 10 years ago, today. It doesn't seem possible that it has been 10 years, already. These last 10 years have been full of everything from laughter, tragedy, stress, good times and hard times. But the thing that has been the fullest is love. I have never felt as loved and protected and safe as I have with my true heaven, Kalani (Kalani means Heaven). I have enjoyed every step of our journey--because we are traveling together. I love him with my entire heart and soul. It is a privelige for me to be his wife, friend and eternal companion. I thank you, Kalani for loving me and all of my 'quirkiness'. I adore you. I love you. I cannot wait to see what the next 10 years gives us. Happy Anniversary, love.

Cute girls in costumes....

2009-11-22T18:51:00.001-08:00

Since we have lived here in Hawaii the girls have really been involved with their Polynesian dancing. There is just something about the dancing and chanting that makes me tear up and get a tight throat. When my girls dance I just become mesmerized. I am amazed at their ability to memorize and recite the chants. I am amazed at their beauty. I am amazed at their ability to move their arms, feet, hips and mouth at the same time--I don't know where that comes from because I can barely walk and talk at the same time. But since we are leaving in a few short weeks we wanted to get their pictures in the natural element of the island. We spent the day driving around looking for good picture taking spots. These pictures are just a sampling of our efforts. The ones below of Pineapple Princess show her in our favorite costume. This is the one she wears when she dances Tahitian. Kawehi and Pineapple have honored their dad with their dancing. Kalani's heart has been touched to have his beautiful daughters embrace his heritage. We are so blessed to be a part of this heritage. A heritage of beautiful traditions. A heritage where love, kindness and respect are weaved in lessons of everyday teachings and living. Aloha means hello, goodbye and love. What a wonderful word. A wonderful remembrance of how to be through out the day. Live Aloha.

A.L.O.H.A.=LOVE. LOVE=FAMILY. FAMILY=HAPPINESS.

"The Gift of an Ordinary Day"....

2009-11-03T20:44:00.000-08:00

I recently saw the title of this post as the name of a new book that is out. I saw it in a real short review and it didn't give much detail about what the book is about. But I cannot get the title out of my head. It got me a thinkin'!!! How often do I thank my Heavenly Father for an "ordinary day"? NEVER. How many times do I think of my days that are ordinary as a gift? NEVER. How often am I frustrated about the everyday 'ordinary' stuff I have to do? ALWAYS!!! My eyes have been opened. I am going to make it a goal of mine to everyday be grateful for my ordinary life, my ordinary days.

Today is the perfect example. After school me and the kiddos worked on homework. TCIG made mac n'cheese for him and big sister, Pineapple Princess. Monkey boy warmed up Ravioli for him and the two little ones. (Yea, I am letting my secret out--we don't always have the most nutrious meals) We played a mean game of SKIPBO (love that game) and RUMMIKUB (love that game even more). Daddy is at school. So it was me and the 5 kiddos--just hangin' out. We were listening to music--I happen to be one of those 'cool' moms who actually like/love some of the same music my kids like so they are always sharing new songs with me. Then our favorite song came on.....In the Air Tonight by Phil Collins. We all love this totally awesome song. We know all the words by heart. If you haven't heard it or listened to it recently I dare you to go find it somewhere and listen to it. That song has the GREATEST drum solo. It doesn't even come up until almost the last part of the song but it is sooooo COOL. We all do 'air drum' and just let lose!! Even my JAG who is only 6 knows the song and does the air drum with us. As I sat there enjoying my ordinary day I couldn't help but think what an EXTRA-ordinary day it has been.

WHAT THE HEEBIE JEEBIES IS THAT?.....

2009-11-01T15:51:00.001-08:00

Look at this UGLY thing.....This is a centepede!!! Isn't it gross???? Kalani found this thing...slithering out of the shower drain....We measured it and it was 6 inches long. This is the kind of things we see over here. We have seen cockroaches that measure almost that big as well!! Not everything is beautiful over here. Heehee.

There is Beauty All Around...

2009-10-25T16:42:00.001-07:00

One thing I can say about Hawaii--there is plenty of 'beauty' all around. I am totally fascinated with the foliage over here. These pictures don't do it justice but the SIZE of leaves over here are HUGE. That is one of my favorite things to take in, is just the absolute size of the vegetation that grows here.

I wish I knew had to take better pictures, but this is a picture of an ocean wave coming over a small wall into a natural 'warm spring' that we were at. Those are my kiddos waiting for the wave.

This is Waipio Valley. I think it is one of my favorite places I have seen. We are standing way above looking down. You have to go down into the valley via ATV or a 4x4. We are on an observation platform.

Another view of the valley....so gorgeous!!!

The most beautiful sight of all........

"I know that my Redeemer lives...."

2009-10-22T20:45:00.000-07:00

On Tuesday I was driving back from Hilo (the other side of the island) from a doctor's appointment with my daughter. I had my IPOD plugged into the stereo system. It is about an hour and 15 minute drive. I was enjoying the peace and quiet of the music when a very special song came on: "I know that my Redeemer lives". (sung by the Mormon Tabernacle Choir). As I listened to the words, I began to sing along..then before I knew it I was wiping away my tears. I have heard this song many times before in my lifetime, but never til that day did I really hear the words. I am not sure why I needed to hear those words at that time..why they affected me so much, but they did. I believe prayers are answered in many different ways. I believe our Father in Heaven will talk to us in ways that He knows we will hear Him. Mine is through music. I am touched by music. These are the words I needed to hear:
He lives to bless in time of need
He lives to comfort me when faint
He lives to hear my soul's complaint
HE LIVES TO SILENCE ALL MY FEARS
HE LIVES TO WIPE AWAY MY TEARS
He lives to calm my troubled heart
He lives and LOVES me to the end

I know that my Redeemer Lives....what joy this sweet sentence gives. I am grateful for this knowledge. I am grateful that I am a daughter of God. I am grateful that I was taught by loving parents and loving youth leaders that I am special , I am unique. I am grateful for all of the testimonies I have heard over my lifetime because I know that every testimony I have had the pleasure of hearing has added strength to my own testimony. I don't know a lot of things "for sure" but I do know this.....I know that my Redeemer lives.

Sometimes great MEMORIES come in small packages..

2009-10-11T22:30:00.000-07:00

HEY YA'LL! This is Cori Sue. I convinced her to let me do a blog on her blog! SO HERE GOES!This is my best friend in the WHOLE WORLD! :) Her name is: MOM. She has been there for me through literally EVERYTHING! WE do everything together, and we love spending time together. She is always there when i need someone to help me, a shoulder to cry on, or someone to play rummikub with. I can talk to her about anything, and she doesn't judge me. We have had countless laughs, an unbelievable amount of hugs, and an everlasting amount of love for one another. I love my mommy. She means the world to me, and i wouldn't have any other mom in the world. :) This picture was taken on our sealing day. I love this pic of her and I. :)

This is my old house in Idaho! I absolutely love this house!!! We have had some AmAzInG times in this place! Everything from late nights with friends, waking up early for school, running around during a game of late night hide-and-go seek, family get togethers, and lots of laughing! So here is my FAMOUS house.. <3

Okay well this is all i have for right now.. i love you all!!! :) I can't wait to get home and see all of you again.. :) I LOVE YOU!!! SWEET HOME IDAHO!! :)

Peace in the Chaos.....

2009-10-04T13:28:00.000-07:00

We live in such a chaotic world. We, as a family, and We, as a human race. We are busy with our schedules and all the activities that require our attention. With 5 kids, 1 husband and myself and the committments we have CHAOS seems to be the common theme. Have you ever noticed how noisy the world is? I have. These last couple of weeks I have REALLY noticed how much noise is around me. I never realized how much this noise effects me, my mood and my family life. A couple of weeks ago I was finally able to do errands all by myself. I had the car and I spent the whole day (because it takes that long to go everywhere) running around getting all the things done that we needed done. I got to talk to my sister and my mom as I traveled back and forth. I ate at Taco Bell....my favorite place. It was such a great day to rejuvenate. But half way home after I hung up with my mom, my first instinct was to reach for the radio. Then suddenly it dawned on me....leave the music off and just be quiet..be still. So I did. What PEACE. No noise. No kids yelling. Just peace, stillness, quiet moments. Me and my thoughts. I was truly amazed at how good I felt. I thought of many things--kids, hubby, my mom, my siblings and their families, the gospel, my father who is on the other side of the veil and how I miss him so, our move to Idaho, our friends in Idaho. So many thoughts came running thru. It made me think of how many thoughts or moments I am missing because I allow the 'noise' of the world to encumber my mind. There is peace in the chaos. I know Heavenly Father is just waiting for me to tune in to HIM. Lesson learned.

"You just wait....."

2009-09-26T18:18:00.001-07:00

Ever since I became a mom there have been people in my life who have said..." Oh, just wait until all those kids are teenagers....." And they say it with a somewhat negative or cautionary tone. Almost like they think it will be torture. Some of these people had teenagers, some never even had kids, some had kids the same age as mine. I heard it so many times I began to dread the 'teenage years'. But here I am...the mother of 2 teenagers and 1 tween and 2 kids aged 7 & 6. I have to say the 'teenage' years hit me a lot faster than I would have wished for. It seems like I blinked my eyes and CS (Pineapple Princess) is almost 15!!! Well, let me tell you something about the 'teenage' years.....it is and can be a GOLDEN time in your life. Is it easy? NO..but nothing WORTH it is easy. Is it stressful? YES. Do you worry every single day that your kiddos will make right decisions? YES. Is it the most fun you will have in your life? YES. Is it a time to nourish the relationship you have been developing? YES. Kalani and I have tried really hard to create a balance in the lives of our children. A balance that allows them to have and exercise their free agency but still adhere to the rules and expectations of our family. I have been pleasantly surprised at how fun this time in our life has been. One of our favorite things to do is to just sit and talk, to laugh, to LISTEN to these wonderful kids. Usually after our sunday dinner Kalani, me and the 3 older kids just sit and hang out. What fun!!! These kids have fun personalities, they are passionate about what they beleive in. They share things they have learned, they say things like..."hey, mom remember the time...." and I think to myself as they talk about the memory, YES I do remember. They ask for blessings from their dad who honors his priesthood. They are involved with their church group, scouts, student council, sports, dance, they attend Seminary, they memorize scriptures, they help with little siblings. They are funny. They make me laugh. They make me cry. They make me grateful to be their mother. They make me count my blessings everyday. They make me humble. They are not perfect. We have had some issues, some big-some small. I am sure as time goes on we will have bigger issues to deal with it. But I am convinced the foundation we are laying now will help us create a bond that will help us deal with the issues yet to come. I know that we are given each of our children for a specific reason. I know that for whatever reason I had to be the mother of the 6 beautiful spirits that I have been given stewardship over. I recognize they aren't "mine" they are children of our Heavenly Father--just as I am. I have been given the task and responsibility to care for them, to teach them, to set an example for them, to LOVE them. It can be a daunting task in this day and age. There are often times that I fall short and feel I am failing my Father in Heaven. But then something wonderful happens, one of my kids will walk into a room and come up to me and whisper in my ear.."I love you, Mom" or 'thanks, Mom'. Or a million other sweet phrases. It is worth it. It is the greatest time in our lives. It is fun. It is sweet and tender at times. It is like a hurricane sometimes. It is like Satan is living right in our living room sometimes. It is busy and chaotic at times. It is tearful at times. It is laughter. But even through all of these 'times' it is LOVE always. So, I say to all of you who have teenagers or will someday...."You just wait....You are going to love it!!!"

GUESS WHAT????

2009-09-19T19:14:00.000-07:00

We are moving back to Idaho!!!The above picture is of 'our' river in Star, Id. Isn't is lovely???

We will be back on the mainland on Dec. 10, probably spend Christmas in Vegas with my mom and sister, then be back after Christmas. We are SOOOOOOO excited. We have no home, no job, hardly anything to furnish a house once we find one....but we are coming home!!! Only 82 more days...We are excited like you cannot believe. Our love to all.

Grow old with me the 'Best' is yet to be

2009-09-13T21:24:00.000-07:00

I will hardly EVER post pictures of myself on my blog...I can't take a good picture to save my life. However...I have been in deep thought lately about my life. I have been truly humbled to realize that I had the greatest of blessings...I grew up with the love of my life, my eternal companion, my best friend. I would be remorseful if I didn't take a few moments to pay tribute to this sweet (he will hate that I used that word to describe him) guy. The title I used for this post is actually the title of our 'theme' song. I wanted to post a picture of us in our younger years and older years to show that we actually have grown old...together. I love that we are together. I love sharing my life with Kalani...my heaven. I love that we lay in bed and talk every night, sometimes late into the night. I love that he knows what I am going to say before I say it. I love that he knows all my weaknesses and loves me anyway. I cannot even begin to convey my great love for him. I truly admire him. He works. He goes to school. He does homework--a lot. He studies. He does daddy things. He does 'honey do' things. He gets up at 4:30 a.m. to get our daughter up and ready for Seminary--and then takes her--everyday. When he is over-the-top tired he still listens to me ramble on and on about whatever I am ramblin' about. He is the definition of loving your family unconditionally. He does acts of kindness for me everyday. I used to give him a hard time because he rarely gets me flowers, and I really wanted him to. But after awhile of constantly nagging him about not getting me flowers...I realized he gives me dozens of roses EVERYDAY. His acts of kindness are flowers. My life is a garden. One of my cherished memories of him and his acts of kindness is when we just had our 2nd daughter, Kawehi. I was still in the hospital and recovering from a C-section. I was sitting in the bed, kind of miserable. I wasn't feeling well, I couldn't sleep and I needed to take a shower. If I can wash my hair, I am ok. Just gotta have clean hair. So, knowing I wasn't supposed to shower yet, but knowing I really needed to wash my hair...he rigged a way to dunk my head into the sink and my sweet hubby....washed my hair. I was sitting in a chair and leaning backwards over the sink. I have to admit it kind of hurt....but to be sitting there and have my love's hands gently caress my hair and head, rinsing and washing my hair was the most wonderful feeling. He was so gentle and loving. I still think of that day in the hospital. That is the day that I really realized he would do anything for me and my happiness. I am humbled. I love this man. I love him. I love him. We have been through so much together. We have grown up--together. We have traveled this road called life--together. I wouldn't trade one thing we have shared or traveled through for all the money in the world. I will never make the Top 100 Richest Women list, but I can tell you I am without a doubt the RICHEST WOMAN in the world. So, Kalani, here is to you...to us....to growing old....TOGETHER. I hope the Best is yet to be.....

My hubby agrees.... I am a DORK........

2009-09-07T20:09:00.001-07:00

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!! I am going to show my age now...But I grew up with Donny Osmond being my 'heartthrob' and I have to admit he is still one of my favorite entertainers. I am, sad to admit, that I am in his fan club..(stop laughing Sami). I get updates every month as to his whereabouts, etc. I get happy when I see him on Entertainment Tonight...told ya I am a dork. So, can you imagine my level of excitement to hear that he is going to be on my FAVORITE show...Dancing with the Stars. Reason #2 I am a dork!!! I totally LOVE that show. And Donny is paired up with one of my favorite dancers, Kym Johnson. Much to my hubby's dismay I will be perched on my bed every Monday and Tuesday night mesmerized by the glorious costumes, the great music and the entertainers trying to dance. (but I will have all my laundry done and I will be using this time to fold...I cannot get over the guilt of just doing nothing in front of the T.V.) I am in awe at how hard they practice and work to learn the steps. I hope my "Donny" lasts through most of the season..or do I dare to dream he will come away the winner!!! Good luck, Donny. I rarely pick up the phone to vote on these shows..but you can bet his # will be set on redial and speed dial.

How do they know?

2009-08-27T13:17:00.000-07:00

I recently got my hair cut....still trying to decide if I like it or not. So, anyway...today I am having a particularly "BAD HAIR DAY". I am so frustrated!!! And of all days this was the day I had NO time to dilly dally and try to rescue the way the hair looked. I felt really UGLY when I came out of the bathroom. As we were running out the door to try and catch the bus going into town....JAG (my little sweetheart) grabbed my hand and made me stop. He looked at me and had me lean down like he had to tell me a secret. He gave me a huge kiss on my cheek and said, "Mommy you look beautiful, today!". How did he know that I needed THAT more than anything today. I am truly convinced our kids are smarter and more intuitive than we think. I am constantly amazed at the joy these little ones give me. Thanks, JAG for making my day!!!

Can you feel the pure JOY and GIDDINESS?.....

2009-08-22T22:21:00.000-07:00

I am not sure if you could hear the screams of joy from across the Pacific Ocean but if you listened close enough you just might have......Little Miss Teenager got her braces off yesterday. You would have thought I just handed her a MILLION dollars--she was THAT excited!!! I never had braces so I can't say I know what she feels, however she is happy and that makes me giddy with joy. (not only because I love when my kiddos are happy--but we no longer have to make a monthly payment!! heehee) Another stage done...Until the next kid needs braces.

BEFORE..... AFTER.......

CONGRATULATIONS, MISS TEENAGER

These last two weeks.......

2009-08-12T21:03:00.004-07:00

--busy getting ready for 'Back to School'
--back to school 8/3 & 8/10
--3 trips to Pediatrician
--1 trip to Emergency Room
--3 sick kids
--Gone through 2 bottles of Motrin
--filled 6 prescriptions
--1 child had to do a sleep study (all night at a clinic--daddy went with)
--worked last 2 Saturdays
--registered for classes a University of Hawaii
--6 trips to Kona--1 hour each way
--homework
--days at the beach
--church meetings, callings, fast offering collecting
--lessons to prepare
--scouts/mutual
--Seminary started
--High school Freshman--it's official I am the mother of a High School student--how did that happen?
--3-5 loads of laundry per day
--Washer broke
--work full time
--1 kid bit by a centipede
--calmed kid from getting bit by the centipede
--ANTS, MICE and COCKROACH all live with us--and I am SICK of it!!!
--hot, humid, rainy days
--purchased uniform shirts for all 5 kids
--trips to library
--trips to the grocery store
--NEVER ENDING

I am tired. Goodbye Summertime. Now our lives will START to get busy.

I have hit a new low.....

2009-08-07T19:56:00.000-07:00

OK let me explain. I have blogged about how expensive everything is over here in Paradise. So, we have gotten into the habit of looking for 'bargains', 'sales' or coupons. Coupons have become our favorite thing to have. So....there is one grocery store here that publishes a booklet of coupons every other month. They send it to us in the mail. This month's coupons are actually GREAT--not every month has great deals. So, we have been on the lookout for booklets of coupons. Well one day I was in the post office (the day after the booklets came out) and I was standing by the trash can throwing away our junk mail. I looked down into the trash can and saw some booklets of these beloved coupons.....So the question is: Do I reach into the trash can and retrieve these coupons? or do I remain a civil person and stay out of the trash? OK so here is my new LOW...I did it!!!! YUGH!! I reached into that trash can and took those stupid coupons!!! Can you believe I did it? How desperate am I? So, the worst part came a few days later. After Kalani and I had talked about my new low and laughed about what a dork I am...I was on the KSL website out of Utah and ran across the story below. I am sure you cannot read it but it is about a woman who was arrested and cited for theft because she was rummaging through her neighbors trash can for their COUPONS!!!!!! I about fell off my chair when I read that. So I printed it out and wrote.."WANTED: KATIE......" and gave it to Kalani at work. I waited for him to read it and then heard a great round of laughter from him. TOO FUNNY. So, here is the thing: I was on federal property (it was in the Post Office), I am sure they have security monitors running so I am sure I am on camera committing my crime. Do I turn myself in or do I wait for DOG the Bounty Hunter to come and get me? I have hit a new low. What is a girl to do when she is deseperate for coupons?

EXTREME MAKEOVER: LIFE EDITION

2009-07-28T00:19:00.000-07:00

I need one. I feel like EVERY aspect of my life needs an EXTREME MAKEOVER: hair, clothes, makeup, exercise, attitude, spiritual, physical, my eating, finances, my communication with others...EVERYTHING. Have you ever felt that way? Please tell me you have. We have hit some bumps in the road over here in Hawaii and LIKE USUAL I am not handling things well. I often wonder why my sweet hubby keeps me. I can only imagine the frustration I cause for him. He must be an ANGEL on earth. No matter how hard I try to stay positive or see the positive side of things I just get so overwhelmed that the'light at the end of the tunnel' is darkened. I wonder why life has to be so hard sometimes. I am sure it is to help me gain strength. I just wish ONCE in awhile life could be a little easy. Ty Pennington--where are you when I need you?

I hate to admit it.......

2009-07-18T22:13:00.001-07:00

This is 'The Dog', Duane Chapman, the Bounty Hunter. A few years ago when Kalani was going to school at night I would try to wait up for him. I was 'channel surfing' one night and came across this long haired guy and his family chasing criminals down in Hawaii. It was like a car accident--ya know you shouldn't watch it but you can't help it. So I watched. And to my surprise I actually liked the show. I felt like it was a "dirty little secret" and didn't tell anyone about my new favorite show. Heehee. Anyway, I watched it for a few years and then gradually stopped for whatever reason. But when we moved over here I 'secretly' wished that maybe someday we would run into him. Not much of a chance since we are on a different island. But last week Kalani and I were in Honolulu stuck in traffic and I happened to look over and saw.....DaKine Bail Bonds. Dog's office!!!! He wasn't there but I quickly grabbed the camera and snapped the first two pictures. The actual picture of Dog was one I found online. Crazy, huh? I hate to admit it..but it brought a little excitement into to my life. What about you? Do you have something you would hate to admit? Come On' I know you all have something you don't want others to know. Heehee. Aloha, Dog, maybe our paths will cross again someday--hopefully not with you coming after me. Heeheehee.

The older I get......

2009-07-13T13:28:00.000-07:00

The more I realize...this is all I need.

Let FREEDOM Ring......

2009-07-04T12:37:00.001-07:00

I have to say the 4th of July is one of my favored holidays. I love the Patriotic songs, the symbols of our great country. There are those who gripe about the bad things that are happening in our country and I admit there are days when I agree with them. There are days that the outlook is very bleak. But when I stop and think about the good in this country I am astounded at our blessings. The very fact that I am FREE to do or choose what I want is in it of itself the greatest blessing our country offers us. I won't get up on a soap box or anything, I just wanted to share my gratitude for this wonderful country that we live in. If I knew how to add music to my blog I would add, "America the Beautiful", "My Country tis of thee", "Star Spangled Banner". Love them all.

One of the reasons I love July 4th is my grandma was born on this day. One of my favorite stories is how her father changed her name at the last minute to "Gloria" in honor of her b'day. My favorite memory of July 4th is from the year 1994. My g'ma was getting pretty sick and we all knew she probably wouldn't be with us much longer. So, in honor of her b'day our entire family came to Las Vegas to celebrate her b'day. I was pregnant with my first baby, CS and was having a very difficult time. My entire extended family was there and we played games, bar-b-qued, went swimming, and just hung out. It was so fun. Then g'ma got tired and needed to lay down. My mom and Aunts suggested I go take a nap with her since I was feeling kind of sick, too. So, I tucked her in her bed and laid down next to her. I just stared at her and her beautiful face. She had the sweetest smile. She protested a little--she didn't want to miss out on any time she could spend with her family. But after just a minute she fell into a deep sleep. I reached out and grabbed her hand and just caressed her sweet soft skin. Oh, how I love her!!! She died on August 2 so we had her for just a little longer after her big b'day. The last few months of her life it was my pleasure to spend every Saturday with her, so my G'pa could work at the temple and my 2 Aunts could spend time with their families. I wouldn't trade the time I spent with her for anything. We watched "Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman and Murder She Wrote" more times than I care to admit. We ate soup and twice baked potatoes every week for lunch. We talked. I would read to her from the Ensign. We would look at family photos. I learned so much from her. And then in the middle of us doing something she would say, "Katie, I need something sweet--there is some ice cream in the freezer." haahaa. So funny. G'ma had a sweet tooth for ice cream--she loved it. We are so blessed to have grandparents. They are our link from the past to the present and shape our future. I am grateful Heavenly Father created how families work. I am so grateful that when it is my time to cross the veil I will not be alone. I will have ancestors and those I knew in this mortal world to meet me. Hold tight to your memories. Sweet remembrances grace my mind this 4th of July. May we all be safe and have a great day. May we always remember those who have died to keep our freedoms. May our prayers be that of verse 4 in "My Country, tis of thee"; Long may our land be bright with freedom's holy light. Protect us by thy might, Great God, our King!"

Happy 13th Birthday, TCIG

2009-06-30T21:21:00.000-07:00

This is our eldest son, TCIG and today he is 13!!! I can't believe how time has flown and how fast this youngman is growing up. He is at Scout camp this week so he isn't even home right now. I miss him!!! He and I have had some wonderful conversations lately, all about 'how to be a great husband'--funny, huh? It totally freaks me out to think he will be a husband and father someday. This guy makes me laugh, he makes me think and sometimes he makes me want to hit my head up against a wall--but no matter what he makes me love being his mom. He is so loving and always knows when to say something sweet (lesson #1 to becoming a great hubby) and the thing that is so great about him is that he has been this way since he was a little guy!!! He is funny, kind, a good worker, he loves to read, he loves to help others, he loves to pass the sacrament, he loves Scouts, he loves learning new things, he is a great brother, son and example to his friends and family. We love him with all of our hearts and so blessed to have him in our family. Happy Birthday, TCIG!!!!

He loves football. We loved watching him play!!!

He is a great big brother!!!!

One of the sweetest kids--EVER!!!!

There is Sunshine in my Soul today.....

2009-06-26T22:29:00.000-07:00

I am trying really hard to find something to be grateful for or things that bring sunshine to my soul...everyday. This world can be so hard sometimes. I find if I can concentrate on the positive or uplifting things it lightens my load and brings me sunshine...so here are some things I am grateful for...

-----A sweet hubby who is in the next room helping two of my sons get ready for Scout camp and help pass off merit badges; listening to them talk about first aid, erosion, family unity, personal safety, how to help the environment, leather working, etc. etc.

----A daughter who does the laundry for me--without complaining TOO much

----Listening to my IPOD--I love music; one song is the Tabernacle Choir (Called to Serve--it is wonderful) the next is Beyonce--All the Single Ladies. I love the randomness of it!!

----A daughter who benefits from modern medicine when she gets 'owies'

----A little boy who finds joy when we are on our nightly walk; he sees his Daddy's shadow and tries to 'walk in it' as we walk; hearing him giggle just brightens my soul; and then that same little boy run ahead to catch up with his biggest brother, inserts his little hand into his brother's and they walk hand n' hand. I love seeing my children give loving touches to each other.

----A daughter helping her brother think of ways to use natural resources to pass off a merit badge--it's a family affair.

----Thinking of my sweet parent's anniversary this weekend.

----Thinking of my dad and remembering something we did or talked about. I miss him.

----A husband whose back hurts but leans down to give me a kiss because I have had a bad day.

There is my list for this day. I cannot take back yesterday, I cannot see tomorrow. I only have today, right now. I hope Heavenly Father will accept my thanks and gratitude, for it is by HIS bountiful hand that I have what I have. I am grateful for all that I have. I am grateful for the love I feel from Him, above. I hope our Heavenly Father will continue to bless us all. Aloha!!!

"Loogey 101......"

2009-06-17T20:16:00.000-07:00

WARNING: If you don't like talking about 'loogies' STOP right now:

Our family has been going on walks everynight. Last night as we were walking, TCIG and I were talking and I mentioned I had something in my throat, (I think I am getting a sore throat) he told me to just "hawk it out". I told him I don't 'hawk' anything. He said, "Mom do you even know how to hawk a loogey?" I told him, no. He then proceded to instruct me on how to "Hawk a Loogey". I almost fell to the ground laughing!! Kalani is the one who said, "Loogey 101". Just made me laugh!!! I think it is so funny what kids come up with and then talk about. I hope all of you mothers have topics of discussions with their kiddos that..um....might be 'off'. Please tell me I am not the only one.....

Happiness is.........

2009-06-07T21:00:00.000-07:00

On Saturday June 6, Kalani and I were able to spend the whole day together----just the two of us. I know you can't see me but I am writing this with a smile on my face!! It seems like we have not been able to have just us time in a REALLY long time. We have been so busy moving, packing, unpacking, finding jobs, going everywhere as an ENTIRE family (kids, in-laws etc.) Somewhere in all of this we have forgotten about 'US'. So, we planned all week--made lists of places we needed to go, things we needed to get etc. We went to Hilo, which is on the other side of the island. It takes about an hour to get there. We were gone from 8:00 a.m. to 8 p.m.!! It was a glorious day of togetherness. So, I wanted to savor every second we had and I discovered that the things that make me the happiest aren't things at all....it is time spent together!!! But having said that here is what happiness is... for me:

*talking in the car with NO interruptions ("Mom..so and so is bugging me", "Are we there yet?", "Dad....." you all know what I am talking about)

*walking in the rain, hand in hand, at the local farmer's market looking for yummy fresh fruits and veggies, with the love of your life

*the love of your life stopping at a Quik market and getting 'my drink'..now this may not mean too much to y'all, however it means the world to me. It was pouring rain & Kalani jumped out of the car & went to get the nectar of Gods for me. He does this all the time for me, and at times there is a 'drive' to find the right place. He fills the cup with ice just perfect and just the right amount of soda. Perfection!!!

*finding a .......SCRAPBOOK Store here on the island..Yeah!!! Ok so it is across the island but still......

*finding the mall and walking hand in hand..the mall is really small but it has "Cinnabon"

*finding and eating at TACO BELL!!! My favorite. Yeah. I am starting to feel a little normal again.

*having the means necessary to provide for our family (groceries, and other needs etc)

*looking deep into my sweetheart's eyes as we talked over our tacos. He has the most gorgeous brown eyes and long eyelashes. Makes me go weak in the knees everytime.

*laughing with him, talking with him, holding hands, having FUN no matter where we are (even at Home Depot in the toilet section)

*singing 80's songs in the car at the top of our lungs.

I could go on and on. It was a glorious day. Perfect in every way. I love the time we spend together. We don't get much 'alone' time so we savor every morsel we can. On the way home that night a song came on that I don't remember from growing up but I loved one particular line..."I am going to celebrate life..today. I am going to be grateful for what I have..today". Couldn't say it any better than that. Happiness is...time. Enjoy yours!!!

Life is for making memories....

2009-05-31T18:44:00.000-07:00

I ate a Dove chocolate (my fave) mini-bar today. When I opened the wrapper the little message typed on in the inside said, "Life is for making memories". That got me thinking. I, actually, have been in a reflective mood of late. It seems since we moved to Hawaii I have been in this reflective mood. Probably because I am so homesick for the mainland and family and friends that I have been thinking of certain people and events over and over again. But this little morsel of truth has made me think all day about 'Memories'. I can't help but think of the line from one of my fave. songs by Barbara Streisand, Memory--memories light the corners of my mind. I feel that way exactly. Isn't it great that a song, or a smell, or a word or a smile can bring back so many memories. I am not just talking about the wonderful, special memories--but the ones that sometimes hurt. Our minds are amazing aren't they? How can all of these things we call memories stay in our minds? It boggles my mind of how our Heavenly Father created our brains to work. At a point in my life not too very long ago I was consumed with memories of a certain time of my life that was not a good time. I was so overwhelmed with re-living the memories that it prevented me from having fun and allowing happy memories into my memory bank. I was eventually able to put those "bad" memories on a shelf in the back of my mind so they aren't there all the time and occaisionally they come back, however through all that I have been through I can honestly appreciate the scripture 2 Nephi 2:11. You can't appreciate the good without some bad. I choose to remember the good. I love memories. I have a very special Aunt who I just adore. I always remind her that she is one of my top 10 memories. Let's just say it involves her, a lot of rain, no umbrella, a VERY busy street corner in San Jose and a diaper on her head. I laugh out loud every time I think of her and this memory. I have had some truly wonderful memories: in the temple being sealed to my hubby and children, 2 years ago; growing up with my hubby and getting my driver's license with him next to me; standing up as a Beehive Class president and making a decision the rest of the youth didn't like; having my oldest daughter hold my hair back while I am leaning over the toilet throwing up (pregnant) and her little 3 yr old hand patting my back saying, "It's ok, Mommy just get it all out"--and that same daughter now 14 lays next to me while I am taking nap and lovingly strokes my hair as I sleep and wake up to looking at her beautiful face; my little boy who is now 12, but when he was 4 told a beautiful lady at the Longs Drug store in Salinas that she was beautiful and she took me aside with tears in her eyes and said that was the nicest thing anyone said to her all day, and that same little boy and I had a discussion the other day about what makes a great husband; my 2nd son who at 3 and learned that his baby sister just passed away and saw me in such despair said "Mommy, I will be Superman and fly to heaven and bring her back to you" that same little boy who at 11 can melt my heart with his kind words and big hugs; my little Kawehi whose dimples can make me smile instantly and tells me all the time I am the best mommy she has ever had; my JAG who shakes his "groove thing" to make me laugh and then tells me I am his best friend; my sister who calls me out of the blue to ask me a question and then we start giggling--and I am at work and have to try to giggle quietly; my mom who makes every occaision one to remember; my brothers who make me laugh until I cry; a friend who taught me how to make french bread; a friend who showed up to surprise me after not seeing her for 10 years; a friend who refused to allow distance to ruin our friendship; friends who have made me laugh; who have allowed me into their world...so many memories that I cannot name them all. Life is for making memories. For memories and knowledge are the only things we can take with us to the other side. So I hope you all have a great time making MEMORIES.

You know you are in Hawaii when you see......

2009-05-27T21:58:00.001-07:00

Signs like this.....Should I be nervous?

When you see foliage with "24 INCH" leaves...this picture doesn't do it justice but the leaves here are HUGE. I love looking at them. The foliage goes right to the roads you travel on, it is almost like you can put your hand out the window and touch them as you drive by. It is one of my favorite things to look at here in Hawaii.

You know you are DEFINITELY in Hawaii when McDonald's carries Taro pies....YUCK!! If anyone has ever heard of POI, this is what it is made of....Taro. I, personally, can't stand the stuff...neither can my HAWAIIAN husband. It is one of those things that you either love or hate. We hate. Hate is such a strong word, maybe I should tone it down a bit......No, hate is the right word.

And my personal favorite sign I have seen.......Isn't this hilarious? But you literally have to watch out for falling coconuts. Love it!!!

ALOHA. Come anytime. We miss you all. Wish you were here or I was there.

Simple Fun, Funny Sayings, Decorating Graves

2009-05-24T21:53:00.000-07:00

One of my greatest joys as a mother is to watch and listen to my children. I love to hear them laugh. I love to see them at play. My kids are great at finding fun no matter where they are or what limited "things" are around them. They don't need lots of toys or entertainment to keep them occupied. I love that they are resourceful. This last week we have been busy with lots of different things. Last weekend we moved from the house upstairs to the apartment downstairs. While we were busy doing this, JAG discovered the always, fun, putting a tissue on top of the fan (while it is on) and watching it fly upward. He was laughing so hard and loud I heard him in the next room and had to come in and see what he was doing. I laughed so hard, just listening to him. It also made me think of my beloved, Dad. 'Grandpa' used to do this exact same thing with his mouth. He would put a tissue over his mouth and make like he was sneezing and the tissue would go flying upward. The kids would laugh HYSTERICALLY. Many memories of those sweet times with Grandpa. (those are the pictures below). Yesterday we spent the day in Hilo (on the other side of the island) doing many things. I will post more about all of those activites later. But we had to go to a fabric store. G'ma and Auntie needed some Hawaiian material for costumes. They were having a great sale, so long story short----we were there for a LONG time. Actually, according to my children we were there "FOREVER". Anyway, Kawehi and JAG found fun playing in the car together. I am not sure what you call it, but you all know what I am talking about...see above picture. Ya know, when you slap your hands together and do different motions. When I was a kid we sang "Miss Merrie Mack, dressed in black...".. They were singing a newer song. But they cracked each other up. Kalani and I were laughing, too. Kids find the sweetest joy in every day life. They are a great example to me. Find joy in the little things.

On the way to Hilo we stopped at a really pretty water fall off the side of the road. As we were walking to the falls, JAG was right in front of me and said.."Mom, look at this cool pinecone". I walked up to him and looked down. This is a coconut. He is my Idaho boy!!!! So funny. We were in lots of totally gorgeous places yesterday and I would scoop him up in my arms and say "JAG isn't this beautiful?", He said, "Not as pretty as my old home, Star Idaho". What are ya going to do? We are in paradise, but we miss our Star, Idaho.

(ok, I don't know what happened to my picture of the coconut, it was here and then it disappeared, and then re-appeared way up above....SORRY. And it copied another picture of JAG. I am still not sure what I am doing with this blog thing)

We went to a couple of cemetaries while in Hilo to put flowers and decorate some graves of my mother-in-law's relatives. It was a neat thing for my kids to experience. We bought some gorgeous flowers at a local farmer's market and then decorated #10 cans with tea leaves and made a really pretty arrangement. This is Kawehi and JAG making one of the arrangements. It is so important for my kids to be a part of certain traditions. While we are here on the island we want to make the most of our experience here. What better way to do that, than to honor ancestors? I taught the Beehives today in my ward and the lesson was on journal writing and family history. There is a quote from Pres. Spencer W. Kimball, that I love: " I promise you that if you will keep your journals and records, they will indeed be a source of great inspiration to your families, your children, our grandchildren, and others, on through the generations. Each of us is important to those who are near and dear to us and as our posterity read of our life's experiences, they too, will come to know and love us. And in that glorious day when our families are together in the eternities, we will already be acquainted!". Isn't that a great promise? My beehives were in awe of that last part of the quote. They never thought about that before. What a blessing it is to know that we have loved ones waiting at the veil for us.

Have a happy, safe Memorial Day. Remember those gone on before us. Keep them close to your heart. I will be thinking of my dad. Jensen. Uncle Norm. Grandpa and Grandma. Great Grandma Elsie. They all impacted my life. I have empty spaces in my heart--my mortal--heart without all of these loved ones. But I am comforted to know that my eternal heart is being built with them on the other side of the veil.

Mean Girls...just make me want to spit nails!!!

2009-05-17T15:41:00.001-07:00

I know I cannot be the only one to feel this way. But as a mother, when one of your babies is hurt don't you just feel like you are a mother bear with claws? When one of your cherished kiddos is hurt on PURPOSE because of MEAN GIRLS don't you just want to spit nails? I have been so upset this last week because of some stuff going on to my oldest, CS, that I could literally spit nails from here in Hawaii back to Idaho!!!. I won't get into too many details but it came to our attention that the group of so-called friends of CS back in Idaho have been and continue to spread rumors about her. Ok, #1--she hasn't been there for over 2+ months, #2-we are an ocean away--why does this stuff happen? What is the purpose of this nonsense. Of course with the miracle world of texting we find out about the rumors almost immediately. But some of the rumors are just plain stupid and require no response (i.e. "CS lied about her dad being Hawaiian--he really isn't"--uh, hello, "CS lied about her sister dying" etc.etc.) But the last one sent us over the edge and had to be dealt with. SO RIDICULOUS that we are dealing with this stuff. So much energy and attention spent on this that shouldn't be necessary. Anyway, we had to get the school and the police involved. Supposedly, it will stop. We will see. But, wow, was I ready to fight. I was ready to spit nails. I cannot stand Middle School. I wish there were no mean girls. I wish jealousy was wiped out. I hope that all of our daughters will just respect each other enough to love one another and bouy each other up instead of tear each other down. So, in view of my little girl getting hurt I wanted to spotlight her in a positive way in this blog entry. This is CS. Her nickname is Pineapple Princess. I love this goofy picture of her. For some strange reason she loves to write on herself. Drives me and Allan crazy, but one of her good friends was over and they went crazy. I love her strength. For she is strong. She has had some pretty hard things to deal with in her life. She has a strong testimony. She stands up for her morals. She is a true Saturday's Warrior. She has an amazing capacity to "get through" whatever road bump is in her way. I admire her.
Here is Pineapple Princess on the BSU campus after a game. One of the funnest times we shared was last October. We went to a BSU vs. Hawaii game--BSU won!! Yeah. After the game we walked around campus and found this bell. I introduced her to the song "Ring My Bell" and we sang it loud and silly. Good times.

This is Pineapple Princess with my mom. Pineapple and G'ma have been the best of friends forever. Pinepple is named after my sister and this beautiful lady. My mom has been so very special to my daughter. I am so grateful that we were able to live in Las Vegas together. They have a special song that any time either one hears it they try to call each other...."Truly, Madly, Deeply" by Savage Garden. I love that they call each other when they hear it. I love that my daughter has g'ma's #'s in her speed dial under Awesome G'ma. I love that we have families that can be eternal. I love that Heavenly Father gave us grandmothers.

These last two pictures are Pineapple in a "reflective" mood. She loves to experiment with her camera. And fortunately for us, we get some neat pictures.

Since I have been a teenage girl, I know how hard it is. I know that these years in a girls life are so confusing and can be difficult. I guess I thought I could be Super-Mom and shield her away from all of that "mean girl" stuff. I failed with that attempt. However, I am grateful that when she was hurting she was able to say, "Mom, can I talk to you?..." and she allowed me to help her. I am grateful that she and I can talk about anything and everything--and we do. I am grateful that this beautiful human being calls me MOM and is a part of my eternal life. I am grateful that after 8 years of trying to get pregnant I was blessed with perfection--so worth the wait. I am grateful that this young woman is who she is. I am grateful that she has had amazing examples in her life. I am grateful that she has a sense of humor, a heart as big as the world and empathy and compassion for others. I am grateful for her. I am grateful to call her daughter and friend.

Scout-O-Rama, Healthy Kids Fair,

2009-05-06T17:25:00.000-07:00

Do you remember the Scout-O-Rama's? I grew up with three brothers and it seemed like they were always trying to sell tickets to the "Scout-O-Rama" at the local fair grounds. I remember going and spending a whole Saturday walking around looking at booths of Boy Scout stuff (that I really didn't care about) , looking at projects the boys did and me? not too impressed. I didn't care about wind tunnels, raising animals, marble collections, stamp collections, flags made by 8 yr old boys, etc. I was a girl. I dreaded those days of Scout-O-Rama. I was always ticked at my parents for "making me go". But we had to go and support my brothers...yadda yadda. Well, guess what...? I have become my parents!!! My oldest son had to sell tickets, we had to go and spend a Saturday (at least it wasn't all day) we had to look at booths, we had to participate. I found myself saying the EXACT same things to the rest of my kids that my parents said to me...."You will go and support your brother", "we are going as a family", "you'll enjoy it", "Be patient", "Just try to deal with it". All in all it was OK. TCIG earned his music merit badge and the two little ones loved the face painting. Then we walked across the street where a Healthy Kids Fair was being put on in conjunction with the Scout-O-Rama. They really enjoyed that. They had great booths to teach how to plant herbs, make and eat salads, McDonald's gave away choc. milk, apple dippers and carmel. And a whole lot more. It was fun for the kids. All in all the day was fun except for the big kids whining to go home...I'm hot, I'm bored, I'm hungry, I'm thirsty...Why do I torture myself and bring the kids along, knowing they will be all those things I just mentioned....WHY? Because my parents did it to me and dang it my kids will be blogging someday about their own kids doing this stuff and they will remember their mother made them go and support their brother/sister!!! Heehee. What goes around comes around.

TCIG learned to play the drum & had to perform a song on it to earn his Music Merit Badge.
Kawehi getting her face painted by what an 11 yr. old boy?

JAG making a leather necklace...

The kiddos at the Healthy Kids Fair. Learning about healthy snacks.

Good times. Good memories. Just like my parents said.

Just Another Day in Paradise....

2009-05-02T15:47:00.000-07:00

I know you all think living in Hawaii must be "Paradise". It is. I am still learning to love it here only because I am still so homesick. However, I am not a "beach" person. I talk to so many of you and you all say how you would love to spend your day at the beach....ME...not so much. Let me explain: I have a major OCD fear of sharks. Like petrified to go into the water fear. Some of you know how deep my fear runs. I saw the movie JAWS when I was 9 on the big screen and it scared the livin' bejeebees out of me. To this day I HATE going into the ocean. I will put my foot in and stay on the shoreline. Allan and the kids will start the music to Jaws when they want to freak me out. They think it is funny--it isn't. I hate the sand all over the place and in everything. I burn. I do NOT have a beach body. So, you see the beach is not my most favorite place. I would rather be in Switzwerland, snowed in a cabin, by a nice roaring fire, in one of those big white sweaters. That is just me. However, last weekend we went to the Waikoloa Hilton Grand Vacation Hotel. My sis-in-law knows someone who works there and we went to their pool for the day. Now, that was fun. Paradise for me. No Sharks. No sand. The water was great, I could see my kids at all times. There was a slide they loved going down. Ok, so I still got sunburned. But I can handle that. We had a blast. It was a lot of fun. These pictures are a few from our day. This is paradise. Kids. Loved ones. Sun. Water. Fun. Wish you were all here.

"...to infinity and beyond..."

2009-04-28T19:00:00.000-07:00

This is Buzz Lightyear. I know most, if not all of you, know who this is. Well, my little guy, JAG, loves Buzz. One day I was telling JAG that I loved him more than anything. His response was....."Mommy, I love you to infinity and beyond". How cute is that? I am telling you what that kid can melt my heart like butter in the microwave. All of my kids have said some really cute things. I was smart enough to write some of them down, not so smart with writing all of them down. I wish I did. So, I would tell all of you....write things down. You won't remember them. Some things are just TOO precious not to remember. I love the fact that my little guy puts me right up there with the magical Buzz Lightyear. I hope when he is 16 he will remember how much he loves me. heehee!!!

"10" Things that I will never get tired of.....

2009-04-22T17:18:00.000-07:00

These are in no particular order...I have just been thinking of things that make me happy, my likes. Ok, so we all know my family, my testimony etc. are ALWAYS top of the list, these things are just pure "earthly" and "fun".....

-----Yellow Roses are my favorite flower. They say "true love" to me. If I had a wish it would be that my hubby gave them everyday to me. The color yellow is my all-time favorite color. Any shade. makes me happy!!

Here is my "Keithy Baby". This is Keith Urban...he is dreamy. My kids even call him "Keithy Baby". I love his music. In this picture he is looking for me....he misses me.

----This is my Joshy. If you haven't heard him sing you are missing out. This CD (his Christmas) is wonderful. One of my daughter's loves track #2 (Little Drummer Boy) my other daughter loves track #6 (Thankful). It is a must have!!!! LOVE, LOVE HIM.

-----DIET PEPSI....no more words needed. Nectar of the Gods. Trumps Diet Coke everytime (yes, CORI, my sis this is meant for you!!!)

--I never tire of "people watching". At the beach this past weekend I watched the cutest little elderly lady get into the ocean. She had her pretty blue swimming suit on, her swim cap that was probably covering her purple hair, and some younger women (maybe granddaughters) holding her hands. She entered in gingerly, got used to the water, held on "for dear life" and shrieked because it was chilly. I had to look away for a few minutes and then I found her again.....out pretty far, literally catching the waves. THE

CUTEST THING EVER. I love watching people in their joyous moments. It warms my heart.

---I NEVER tire of the way Kalani (my hubby) smells after bar-b-quing. I wish they would make a cologne..."Ode to Bar-b-que" I would buy every bottle.

---I never tire of visiting my parent's home. It doesn't matter if I grew up in the house or not, if my parents live there it is HOME. Is that crazy? I am a mother and all grown up...but still need and love to come HOME to my mom.

---I never tire of eating ACT II buttered popcorn, mixed with M & M's and swig it down with Diet Pepsi. (this is my favorite dessert).

---My IPOD. enough said. Music makes my world go around.

---Cell phone. My direct line of communication to my world.

Ok, this list was easy and I have a lot more I could add. But for now that is a good start. I love things that make my life easier. So if you are reading this you are on the list, too!! All my loved ones make my life easy. I appreciate and miss and LOVE you all.

What a difference two weeks makes....

2009-04-17T13:47:00.000-07:00

Two weeks ago today I had a COMPLETE meltdown and I have been thinking about it ever since. I keep asking myself why do I do this? So here is what I think......At the time of my "meltdown" this is what our (my life) was or at least seemed to be: no job, no money, no home, no car, no friends, everything was no, nothing, without....

Allan and I knew without a shadow of a doubt that this move to Hawaii was meant for us. We felt in down to our bones that this was what we were supposed to do. However, things weren't coming together like we thought they were going to. We ran out of money SUPER fast and had no jobs or money coming in to replenish what we had spent. The prospect of finding a job looked very bleak. Those of you who know me, know that I stress BIG time over stuff like this. Anyway, the Wed & Thurs before my meltdown Allan and I had fasted and prayed for guidance. We were humble. We prayed. We pondered. We questioned ourselves..did we do the right thing? So by Friday, meltdown day, things had not improved..in fact they seemed worse. I will spare you the details but let's just say it looked like we wouldn't be able to feed our family, still no job, still no money, etc. Anyway, it all got to me. I cracked. I was giving up. I lost it. BIG TIME. Like uncontrollably sobbing, shoulder shaking, nose running, tears streaming down my face uncontrollably, lost it. Allan and I were in our room, me on one side of the bed, he on the other. I remember him looking at me with the look of total disbelief on his face. Now, you know Allan is the sweetest, most patient man on the earth. He treats me like a queen. He never raises his voice at me. He just holds me when I meltdown. But I think he knew this was a different kind of meltdown. The likes of which he hasn't seen probably since Jensen died. He tried to calm my nerves. Didn't work. He tried to reason with me. Didn't work. He told me it would be ok. No way, didn't work. So, he walked over to me. Tried to hold me. Tried to calm me down. My shoulders were to shakey. I didn't want him to make it better. What the heck was I thinking? So the man who never raises his voice at me, had to. Like I was a little kid. I suppose I was acting like one, so he had to treat me like he was the parent. He told me not to give up on us. He told me he loved me. He told me it would be ok. He told me eveything would work out. He wiped the tears. He gave me a kleenex for my nose. He held me. I cannot tell you how comforting it was to be held tight in his loving arms. At that instant I knew Heavenly Father had answered my prayer once again. He blessed me with this wonderful man. My husband. My best friend. My Kalani (heaven). So, obviously, I recovered from my meltdown. The meltdown happened at about 11:30 a.m. and you know what......by 2:00 p.m. Allan found a job, a MEDICAL, job and lot's of other things that were troubling us worked itself out...or at least gave us hope that things would be ok. So, what did I learn from this.....that Heavenly Father answers prayers on HIS time not mine. I already have a testimony that He answers prayers, now I have to come to know the next stage...He does so in His time frame, not ours. So, after this meltdown and lack of faith I was feeling guilty. Why does Heavenly Father continue to bless me when I continue to disappoint Him by not having the faith to endure. I was in the car waiting for Allan one day and I noticed a book. A book, my daughter was reading. We bought it at Time Out for Women and Girls. It is written by Kim Nelson. He was one of the speakers at the conference. I opened to the page she was on...another answer to my prayer. The chapter was entitled God's Partental Affection. There it was...He blesses me because He loves me like I love my children. I never stop loving my children no matter what mistake they make, and our Father in Heaven loves us the same way. He helps our needs get met. If we ask Him, He will help us. Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes it is no. Just like me with my children. The author quotes, Luke 11:13-" If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?"

Things are good. We are together as a family. Allan and I are both working at Waimea Urgent Care. We have a home to live in, we have a car to share, our kids are happy. We are on our way to making things work. There is a dim light at the end of the tunnel. There is a rainbow in the distance. We are constantly reminded of the love our Father has for us. We see rainbows here on the Big Island weekly, and until now I never noticed how beautiful they are. Somewhere over the rainbow is where I want to be....and the good news is we are heading that way!!

What a week.........

2009-04-11T13:21:00.000-07:00

We have had a busy week. The kids went back to school from Spring break. The usual Scouts, mutual, school activities, etc. kept us running at a sprinter's pace. One of the BIG activities we had was a show my girls were in with their hula group. The 2nd Friday of each month they perform at a local outdoors shopping mall, tourist spot--and the show was GREAT!!! My sis-in-law is the director of the group, my niece helps choreograh and my mother-in-law mc's the show. There are 6 principle dancers and little Miss Kawehi dances, too. The dancers are all teenagers and they are FANTASTIC. There is even a fireknife dancer. I don't care how many times I see the dances I grow to love them more and more each time. There is just something about Hula dancing, Tahitian, Samoan, New Zealand dancing that I just love. I love the chanting, the music, the meaning behind each dance. This is how the Polynesians tell there their stories. Their geneology was carried down through generations by their dancing and beautiful hand movements, before the written word was introduced to them. I just get lost in the special meaning behind it all. I love watching my daughters be a part of it. CS, my oldest, learned 6 new dances in 2 weeks. So she was kind of nervous to perform last night. But she did GREAT. I cry every time I see her perform. She touches my heart!!! She was really excited because she learned some new dances that are "couple" dances and loved learning to dance with J.D. !! She is defintely growing in her talent, being here in Hawaii. I love it!! So here are a few pictures to share in our Hula love.....

CS and Kawehi
Kawehi and G'ma showing members of audience how to do the hula....

CS and J.D. --couples dance

CS doing a solo....performing a dance she learned in Idaho (thanks Aumau)

My Three Sons.......

Last Saturday we were at the beach for JAG's b'day and had been there for a long time. We had just told the kids they had about 10 minutes before we had to leave. I was standing as life-guard on the shoreline and watched my three sons. Now for those of you who know my sons I think you would agree they are "lively" and like to have fun. As I was standing there watching my three sons play with each other in the water I felt such an overwhelming joy!! You know how they say when you are about to die your whole life just starts kind of flashing in your head and memory? Well, I wasn't dying but suddenly the lives of my little boys starting flashing through my mind...each of their births, their quirks, the events of their lives that have made them who they are...watching my eldest son pass the sacrament at church, their scouting activities, helping G'pa (my dad) take the cans they collected to the recyle place and then stop at McDonald's and get a "cold one"--a drink of lemonade or root beer......so many more memories flooded my mind. I watched them. I smiled. I cried. Allan was standing there and looked at me and asked what was wrong...I couldn't even talk. I just watched these three little boys (because that is what they are too me, even though my eldest is taller than me) be just that..LITTLE BOYS. I have seen movies or T.V. shows that show bear cubs wrestling with each other, they kind of circle on top of each other and roll around on the ground, that is what my boys were doing...except in water. They would jump on each other, dive under the water and come up under another brother...the sweet sound of their laughter made me smile. I stood there thinking where has the time gone. I suppose because it was my "baby's" 6th B'day (and he constantly reminds me that he is not a baby anymore) I was a little more reflective than usual. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for allowing me to witness those few minutes of pure fun and joy my three sons were both experiencing and also giving me one of the greatest joys a mother can have. Did your mom ever say to you, when you asked her what she wanted for her b'day or Christmas or mother's day, just for you to be happy, or be a good kid or something homemade? Mine did. I remember thinking "Mom, that is kind of lame..what can I get for you?" Now I totally get what she meant by her "dorky" answers (I thought that is what they were when I was teenager) because there is NO material thing I would want in replace of watching my children play, get a long, be happy, have fun, smile and laugh with one another. Motherhood is the hardest job I have ever had. There have been days when I could have easliy said "forget this" and walk away. But I have also come to know that Heavenly Father knows exactly what to do to stop me from giving up...He sets me up. He makes things happen that sweetly remind me how wonderful motherhood is. My three sons play in the ocean....my daughters perform beautiful dances...motherhood is joy. My heart is full.

"JAG" is 6!!!!!

2009-04-04T22:44:00.000-07:00

JAG and ASHLEY (see below)

I cannot believe my "baby" is 6!!!! He has looked forward to this birthday for so long. I am not sure why he wanted to be 6 so badly. But the day finally came. We spent the day at the beach, per JAG's request. I didn't take any pictures there because the wind was so intense and I didn't want to get sand in it. But we had a blast. He had so much fun in the water, the sand, boogey boarding & snorkeling. JAG totally loves the beach.

Grandma made him a huge cake!!! Chocolate of course.

JAG wearing our traditional Birthday hat. We made sure the hat was packed for our adventure in Hawaii.

JAG is the sweetest little boy. He has been such a joy to our family. I love every precious moment I get to spend with him. He is full of love, laughter and life. He loves the littlest of things. He loves trucks, cars, action figures, movies, cartoons, sand, dirt, sticks, rocks, his brothers, his sisters, his daddy, his mommy, his grandma's, his cousins, his aunties and his uncles. He loves Jesus Christ and loves going to Primary. He loves the song Rock Star--the louder the better. He loves to dance, he loves to wrestle. He loves his friends...and misses them so very much. His best friend in the whole world is a sweet little girl named Ashley. (I still can't figure out this whole downloading pictures thing and I didn't do it in the right order. So, see above pictures). One day at the beach JAG was playing in the sand, building a sandcastle and all of a sudden he was just sitting there, staring out into space....I asked him what was wrong and he said, "I miss Ash". Ripped out my heart. He loves Ashley. He misses her. They did everything together. JAG is going thru withdrawals without his Ash. In the pictures above, we had Ashely with us one day and ran all over Boise, Eagle and Star doing errands. They were so good to just take and hang out with. I loved listening to them in the back seat--talking, telling secrets to each other, and making each other laugh. So cute. I love how JAG calls her "Ash". My favorite. She is this tiny little thing that I wish I could have put in my suitcase and brought with us. We all miss Ash. She made JAG so happy. I hope he will always remember the fun they had. I hope when we move back to Star in 3-4 years she will still be there.....and they will be best friends again. After all...I married my best friend from growing up....(No pressure).

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY SWEET JAG. Thanks for letting me be your mommy!!!

The Wheels on the Bus..........

2009-04-01T19:07:00.000-07:00

One great thing about the island is that they offer "free" bus rides pretty much all over the island. You just wait at the bus stop, the bus comes every hour on the hour, and you get on. Last Thursday Allan and I took the two little ones for a ride into town. So this is the 3 of them waiting for the bus to come and it was raining....it seems to always be at least sprinkling and very windy where we live.
Here are Kawehi and JAG on the bus...they loved being on the "big" people bus...

Here are these two silly kids again...in town...again notice the umbrellas...

While we were on the bus I noticed an elderly man sitting in front of us. He was so cute. One of my favorite things to do is "People Watch" and especially elderly people. One of my favorite memories is from 20+ years ago. I was attending BYU and rode the bus everyday into Orem for my job. One day as I rode I noticed this little elderly couple sitting there across from me. I watched them. They were holding hands and just looked at each other so lovingly. I was entranced by them. Their eyes glistened as they stared at one another. At that very moment I decided that is what I wanted. I wanted to be able to look into the eyes of my eternal companion and get lost in the love we share. The man smiled at his wife. She caressed his hand that was cradled in hers. I watched. To this day I often replay that little scene like it is a video in my mind. I can remember their smiles, their eyes, the age spots on their cute little hands. I am not sure why that scene is still fresh in my mind after all these years. It was one of the most tender "real life" scenes I have ever witnessed. So, this little elderly man on the bus that day we rode was by himself and I got to wondering..has he lost his love, is he all alone, is he healthy, is he happy? We said goodbye to him when he got off the bus. I hope we made his day. I think some of our elderly people in our society get forgotten most days. I hope we can always extend a helping hand, open a door, carry groceries, smile, acknowledge their existence, make their day brighter. We learn the most from those who have gone on before us.

Sea Turtles, Snorkeling and Raw Fish.....

2009-03-29T00:18:00.000-07:00

We went to the beach today and had an amazing experience!!!! While we were just hanging around by the shoreline in shallow water, minding our own business, we had a visitor....Yep, a sea turtle (honu) came right up to us and just hung out with us. AMAZING!!! I didn't have my camera with me, so this isn't an ACTUAL picture of our new friend, but just so you get an idea. Kawehi and JAG couldn't believe it. I have to admit I was pretty amazed myself.

The kids also learned how to snorkel today. Allan has always loved snorkeling and is pretty good at it. The kids loved it.

TCIG went on a 2-day camping trip with the Young Men organization. He came home pretty sunburned and tired...however...he learned how to canoe/paddle, hangline fish, speared an EEL, caught, gutted and ate raw fish!!! I about fell off my chair when he told me this. This son of mine is my most "pickiest" eater. I couldn't believe he ate RAW FISH, and that isn't the only crazy thing...He loved it!!!

Our family, especially the kids, are having such wonderful experiences here on the island. I am grateful for this chance my kids have to learn new skills, new hobbies, new likes, new language etc. I am so excited for the future. ALOHA!!

My heart grows bigger......

2009-03-25T18:30:00.000-07:00

These pictures are supposed to have been with the post below!!!

A thought.....

2009-03-25T18:03:00.000-07:00

I was reading an article yesterday on the Columbine school tragedy. Can you believe it will be the 10 year anniversary of that horrific day? I remember just being sick listening to the news coverage of that horrible event. I have often thought of how totally desperate those 2 boys must have felt to commit such an awful crime. Why is there no tolerance in this world? I pray for all of us to just get a long. Anyway, in this article they interviewed one of the mothers who lost her sweet 17 yr old daughter. Through my tears I read this mother's comments and was in awe of how she was able to deal with the death of her daughter. What strength. I didn't have that much strength and courage to get through my daughter's death. I have been thinking a lot about the last sentence of the article, a qoute from this mother: "the hole in your heart will never get smaller. Never. So there is only one way to make it feel smaller. Grow your heart bigger every day." What a simple way to lessen pain, grow your heart bigger---service. Isn't that what Christ taught us, Serve one another. So, I have been thinking of ways I can grow my heart bigger. Laugh with my family. Love my family. Move to Hawaii to support my hubby (it is a sacrifice--I promise). Cook. Clean. Take a meal to someone. Visit teach. Read with your kiddos. Make a card for a friend. Smile. Enjoy life. Hope. Endure. Have faith. Do the best you can in whatever circumstance you are in. Remember the sun will rise tomorrow. Try to lighten someone's burdens. ETC. ETC. There are so many ways to grow your heart bigger. I absoulutely love this mom's advice. I know for a fact that serving others does help heal. I hope I can be an example to others, especially my kiddos, of how to grow my heart bigger. I will start by loving my family unconditionally (better). I will laugh more. I will enjoy the journey.

(ok, so I cannot figure out how to work this whole blog thing. I couldn't get the pictures I wanted to upload with this post.)

THE BEACH...part II

2009-03-24T15:11:00.001-07:00

I couldn't get all the pictures over in one blog entry...so here is part II. CS, my 14 year old daughter wouldn't let me post any pictures of her in her bathing suit....so don't think I am ignoring her. I remember those days. So I will post one of her another day.

This is TCIG digging in the sand. Quickly becoming one of the kids' favorite things to do. The sand is really fine and not full of rocks or shells.
JAG and MONKEY BOY again, enjoying the sand. Aloha!!!

THE BEACH...

2009-03-24T14:57:00.000-07:00

JAG at the beach, doing his favorite thing...building sandcastles...
JAG loving the water....it is pretty warm here in the water....

KAWEHI has discovered "Boogey Boarding" and totally LOVES it. She will not get out of the water!!! It is so fun to watch her "catch the wave." She is adapting wonderfully to the Hawaiian lifestyle. As I am posting, my sis-in-law has Kawehi at the beach. Auntie couldn't resist the eyes and dimples of Kawehi begging to go. Thanks, Auntie Alana.

Ok, so I thought I fixed this picture but it didn't carry over....Anyway, this is Kawehi in her new favorite outfit...the wet suit!!!

This is one gorgeous view of where we were sitting on the beach. It truly is beautiful here. This is Hapuna Beach. I wish you were all here with us. I really miss all of you on the mainland. Please keep in touch!!! Aloha.

WHAT THE HECK?????

2009-03-20T11:51:00.000-07:00

Ok, I have had MAJOR "sticker" shock.........I cannot believe how much stuff costs here in Paradise........HELP!!!! We went to the store the other day and needed to get milk.....Ok, are you sitting down? It was on "sale" for $4.39...normally $8.35--AUGH!!! Can you believe it? I am used to $1.98 at Wal-Mart in Idaho. WHOA. Any one who knows me, knows that I cannot live without Diet Pepsi. So, I told Allan I had to have "my stash"--gotta have it. So, we found the 12 pack--on sale for $6.99 down from $9.99, then we kept looking and found a 36 pack for $9.99 normally $19.99!!! We got 2 36 packs. I have to have total will power and limit myself to one can a day. I don't know if I am up to that task....but need to try. Peanut butter (has to be Skippy) $7.00 for a small bottle. Oh, man my habits will have to change. Bread $4.69 a loaf. I knew it was more expensive here, but OH MY GOODNESS. How do people survive over here? Then my mother-in-law took us to COSTCO. Good, ol' Costco will be my saving grace.....their 36 pack of Diet Pepsi is a normal $9.99. I will SURVIVE. How sad is that...I measure my survival on the availability of my favorite drink. Some of you will understand where I am coming from. Diet pepsi is like the nectar of the Gods to me. Hee hee. I know, I am out of control. So, all of you on the mainland, enjoy your milk, your loaves of bread, your SKIPPY peanut butter, your diet pepsi and think of me---yearning for what you can get so cheap. I appreciate those things a whole lot more now. A.L.O.H.A.

On the Road Again......

2009-03-18T21:05:00.001-07:00

That is the theme song of our life these last few weeks......After A LOT of love, support, work, endurance, tears, boxes, trips to the post office, trips to the storage unit, more tears, laughs, dinners and lunches with friends.....we FINALLY made it to the Big Island of....HAWAII!!!! Allan and I landed yesterday and we are still waiting for the time difference to catch up to our bodies and the jet lag to disappear. We were lovingly welcomed by our children and mother in law, sister in law and nieces and nephew. We left Seattle yesterday morning in the rain and HUGE snowflakes and landed here in the rain. We have logged so many miles between Idaho, Nevada, California, Oregon, Washington, the Pacific Ocean and Hawaiian Islands I feel like I am all traveled out. The kids are adapting well and love it here. Our new mantra is "it's in a box somewhere" as we are still waiting for MANY boxes to arrive via the wonderful post office. I will be so impressed if all 44 (yes, I said 44) boxes make it here.

To all of our friends in Star that we didn't get to say goodbye to....We are sorry!!! We wished we could have gotten to see you all before we left. There just wasn't enough hours in the day to get everything done we needed to. So please forgive us and just know that we love you!!! Please keep checking our blog for updates on our family. We love Star and all that it did for our family!! We cannot wait to come back!!!

To all of you who helped us pack, move, let us borrow your trailer or truck...THANK YOU. We cannot thank you enough for all that you did for us. We believe we have the greatest support system and loved ones. After we had been here for a few hours I got really sad and down. It hit me like a twinkie truck (my dad's favorite saying) that I was really gone from Star and my wonderful friends and loved ones....I REALLY miss you all.

Our camera and chords are "in a box somewhere" so as soon as I can I will post some updated pictures. Until then please keep in touch. Look at our blog. E-mail us--allanandkatie@msn.com, our cell phones are the same for now.....our new home # is 808-333-5677. It is 4 hours behind Idaho here in time. 3 hours behind California and Nevada and Arizona.

We love you all. Mahalo (thank you in Hawaiian) for everything you have all done for the Gilbert Ohana (family in Hawaiian)!!!!! A-L-O-H-A!!!

Did you think to pray?

2009-03-10T19:44:00.000-07:00

I love the words to this hymn. My dad played it on the piano all the time and it was one of his favorites. As I get older the meaning of prayer and the realization and true testimony that our Father in Heaven not only hears our prayers..he answers them, gets stronger and stronger. After the experience we had this weekend I am truly convinced (AGAIN) that my Heavenly Father loves me and my family. We left on Friday, 3/6/09, to head to California to my brother Kurt's home. We had to get the kids to the Oakland airport to head out to Hawaii and my brother lives close by. So we were going to hang out with him and his family for a few days before we left for the islands. Well, all the way from Idaho to Cali we were having car trouble. Our brakes kept locking up. And of course it was all through the night. We were very nervous and didn't know what was happening. We would pull over and the car sit and cool down. Allan would release the cap to the brake fluid resovoir and it would seem to be ok. But it would do it every couple of hours. We noticed the rubber seal in the cap was totally breaking up and figured maybe a piece of the plastic fell into the brake fluid and was clogging the line. We had a prayer before we left (which is tradition) and although the trip took longer we were able to still push forward. We had to drive over Donner pass right outside of Reno on I-80. If anyone knows that pass you know how scary it is. It is 7500 feet up!!! This pass gets closed all the time because of snow and is very dangerous. We had to stop half way over this pass. The car didn't seem to recover this time and we were very scared. Allan offered another prayer. The whole time, I am praying, "Please Heavenly Father, let us get to my brother's house". Well, our prayers were answered and we made it--finally--after about 14-15 hours. We took the Yukon into the dealer down from brother's house on Monday. This is where my testimony of prayer REALLY comes to the surface......the mechanic was in total "awe" that we made it all the way from Idaho alive!!! He said our brakes could have totally gone out at any minute. He couldn't believe we made it. VERY SCARY to hear that. So....the short version of this story is: somehow transmission fluid was put into our brake line and it was totally "eating" away the entire brake system. We would have to replace the whole entire brake system to make sure it was ok. They couldn't tell how far the damage was done throughout the system. Total cost......$4700!!!! Can you believe it? I totally fell apart...We don't have the money to fix it, we don't have a credit card etc. NOT to mention the fact that we could have gone off the 7500 feet cliff at any given moment!!! We had our car serviced locally in Boise last week in preparation for the trip--oil change,, check fluids,etc. The mechanic in Cali says this type of damage happens rather quickly, so we feel it happened then--but we can't prove it. The place here totally denies doing anything with the brakes (of course) even though they did report everything looked ok. Anyway, we had to leave the car at my brother's, after we had it towed--the dealer wouldn't let us drive it off the lot, we had to rent a car to get home, my sweet sis-in-law got up to drive us to the airport at 4:30 in the A.M., and by the way, we had a small U-Haul trailer attached to us as well. The kids made it to Hawaii yesterday--and have already been to the beach, Allan and I made it home, SAFELY, last night. We are now ready to start the next phase of Operation move to Hawaii. Does Heavenly Father answer prayers? YES. Does He know you and your needs? YES. Does He love every one of his children and wants them to be safe? YES!!!! Of this I am certain. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have that God lives. He blessed my family this weekend. He blesses us everyday. In a world of woes right now, please take time to thank your Heavenly Father for all the gifts you have been blessed with...even those that test your endurance. Did you think to pray? I am so glad we did!!!!

Happy Birthday......."MONTH"

2009-03-05T13:13:00.000-08:00

We have been partying up a storm at our house the whole month of FEBRUARY!!! These picutres are kind of in the wrong order...but oh, well. The above picture is Allan being the "life of the party" and Kawehi's b'day party. We had the girls make candy lei's and daddy's actually turned out to be more of a crown.....He totally made all the girlies laugh.
Kawehi didn't want a cake, just cupcakes. So we just arranged them to be into a #7.

This is Kawehi wearing the b'day hat. It's tradtion!!! We all have to wear the hat on our b'day. We even made my friend Sami wear it when she visited us once close to her b'day. So be prepared...if you visit us around your b'day you, too, will have to wear the "HAT". (note: the candyland sign above Kawehi's head is a sign my dad made 10 years ago for a party we had for my oldest daughter CS. I couldn't ever get rid of it).

Allan looking like "It's my b'day and my wife gets me a food processor!!??" Haha. Allan loves kitchen gadgets and always ends up cooking. So, I thought--the perfect gift: a kitchen gadget that will make his "job" easier.

Allan, JAG and Monkey Boy celebrating...DAD. (Don't look at the mess in the background---we are in the middle of dejunking to move).

Allan, Me & Monkey Boy celebrating b'day #11!!

Kawehi, CS, Monkey Boy, TCIG and JAG--wishing happy wishes to Monkey Boy.

Monkey Boy, 11 years old.

We have had a busy month. But a fun month. 3 out of the 7 people in our family celebrate their special day in the month of FEBRUARY. I am grateful for these people in my life. My entire family means the world to me. I sometimes get a little sad on my kids b'day, I think of them getting older. I treasure the time I have with these wonderful human beings. They teach me so much everyday. I am grateful that I get to grow old with Allan, my best friend, my love. How blessed we are that our Father in Heaven loves us THAT much to give us....Families!!!

"Mommy, I had a beautiful dream last night".....

2009-03-02T11:07:00.000-08:00

That is how my little Kawehi woke me up this morning. I was still enjoying the last few minutes I had before I had to pull my body out of bed. Allan was in the shower and little Miss Muffit woke up for some reason. She climbed in my bed and snuggled right up against me. "Mommy, do you want to hear about my dream?", she asked. I, of course, wanted to continue to sleep and pretend I didn't hear her....but there was something in her voice that made me really wake up. That little voice in my head that said, "Wake up and listen, something sweet is about to happen!". And it did. I laid there listening to my 7 yr old little angel tell me about her magical, sweet, beautiful dream. We built in and then lived in a house of flowers. Then she described the colors and the smells of all of these flowers and the grass. Our family built this house of flowers--together. She said we really worked hard and we all got along making this house (oh, good there is hope). She described every detail. I was basking in her descriptive words. My dad would have been totally mesmorized in her sweet description. I am so grateful for that little voice in my head that said--pay attention, dingdong!!! What an amazing way to start a Monday. My wish for Kawehi and all my kids is to have sweet beautiful dreams every night. Thank you for sharing. I would say to all of us when your children say, "Mommy do you want...?' The answer is always YES, because I promise you something sweet is about to happen.

...Precious MOMents.....

2009-02-26T12:53:00.001-08:00

I have been super busy trying to get everything ready for the big move to Hawaii. I have been running around like a "madwoman". I have been at times grumpy, short tempered, tired and just not very nice. I apologize to my family for that. Just not enough hours in the live-long day. However, because my little guy, JAG, is in Kindergarten I have him home every morning. And no matter how "crazy" life is he makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He makes me take a deep breath. I often will stop and just look at him and wonder what he is thinking....
Could he possibly be dreamin' of all the fishin' he will do in Hawaii--boys love to fish.

Is he remembering the stories we read together....Will he remember how much we loved to read?

I always want to know what my kiddos are thinking. I love seeing the look of wonderment on their faces. The light bulb going on when they figure something out. Or when something "clicks" with them. I need to remember that no matter how crazy life is I need to stop, look, listen, love, hold, smile, snuggle, pray, give thanks, laugh, cry, dance in the kitchen with JAG, kiss my honey when he walks in the door, speak softly, love, laugh, breathe....for these after all...

ARE THE SWEETEST TIMES.........

Happy Birthday, Princess....

2009-02-25T10:31:00.000-08:00

Do you remember what you were doing seven years ago right now? I do. I was in the Valley Medical Center in Las Vegas in labor with this little cutie pie. This is KKG, I will use her Hawaiian middle name, Kawehi (the W makes the sound of a V) and she is 7 years old today. Kawehi is the sweetest little princess. She has brought us so much joy. She was born right after we lost Jensen and renewed our hope and faith. She laughs, she cries, she bosses (she is a girl after all) she loves her family, she loves swimming and would live in her bathing suit 24/7 if we let her--but moving to Hawaii might just up her chances. Winter of 2007 my relief society president came to the door and little miss Kawehi answered the door in her swim suit, not a big deal you think....well it was SNOWING outside. I just had to laugh and say this is our life. Heehee. Kawehi has the blueset eyes, dimples to die for and the cutest little teeth --that she is losing quick by the way and is a great reader. She loves to learn the art of Hula and is pretty good--if I do say so myself!! She is a "daddy's girl" to the extreme and sometimes I am saddened when she only wants Daddy, but I was a "daddy's girl" so I can't complain. Kawehi loves High School Musical, especially, "Troy", Disney Princess--anything, but her favorite is Ariel. She loves pizza, spaghetti and chocolate in any form!!! She is such a joy to her family. I am so blessed to be her mommy. Happy birthday my little Lilo, my sugar, my princess, my sweet little girl. Hope your days are always sunny and you can always hear the music.

.....So you had a bad day.......

2009-02-21T12:46:00.001-08:00

This is JAG. He is 5 1/2 years old. He is usually a VERY happy, energetic, go with the flow kind of little guy. He RARELY has a "bad day".....However, like us all, he is entitled. I am not sure why his day was bad on the day this picture was taken, but his big sis. CS, decided it was worth documenting with a picture. Oh, little JAG, someday you will look back and laugh at this picture. You may have been having a bad day, but you are soooo cute and this picture made me laugh!!! Here is wishing everyone a good day!!!

Let's go on a Hike!!!!

2009-02-19T09:19:00.000-08:00

A couple of weeks ago Allan took the four kids that were home on a hike. Our oldest son was at a Boy Scout Campout called Klondike. They camp in the snow and ice. But NAIG, our 2nd son, needed to participate in a day hike to pass off a requirement for his WEBLOES. They had a lot of fun and enjoyed the wonderful weather here in Boise, ID. Mommy stayed home and cleaned and tried to pack some more.
Daddy and Monkey Boy

They went from walking in the snow......to dry dirt (see picture above).

All smiles.....can't wait to do it again. Thanks, Daddy for a great Saturday activity!!!

Conversation with a 12-yr. old boy.....

2009-02-18T09:48:00.000-08:00

So I am driving my 12 yr. old (TCIG--his initials) son to the doctor this morning, and this is how the conversation went:

Me, "TCIG, what are you guys doing for Scouts tonight?"

Him, "Law merit badge"

Me, " What are you doing for it?"

Him, "Law merit badge" (he said it really slow like I didn't hear or understand him)

Me, "Ok, but what are you DOING for it?"

Him, "The requirements for the merit badge!" (sounding frustrated--like why isn't she getting me?)

Me, "Ok, TCIG, but are the requirements? What activity are you doing?"

Him, "oh, I don't know ".

Since this boy is my oldest son every "boy" thing he does makes me just sit back and go "UMMM". A sister spoke in Sacrament meeting Sunday. They are new to the ward so she was introducing their family. They have 2 daughters and then 3 sons. She said she doesn't even pretend to "get" her sons--the noises they make or the smells they make. I almost stood up and said "Amen, Sista"!!!! Why do boys think bodily noises or smells are funny? Why do they like the stupidest movies and video games? I am still tryin' to figure that one out. But I love my boys UNCONDITIONALLY!! They are so fun. They make me laugh. When I see my oldest son pass the sacrament or perform his duties as a 2nd counselor in the Deacon's class presidency my heart soars. I love him in his WHITE SHIRT!!! (inside joke some of you will understand) So, my son may not be the greatest conversationalist, but he tells me the basics: I love you, Mom. Thanks. Please. I love you, Ikaika (his Hawaiian middle name)!! It means Warrior as in my Stripling Warrior.

Happy Birthday, Monkey Boy

2009-02-12T14:32:00.000-08:00

Today is my son's birthday. He is 11!!! We call him Monkey Boy, so that is what I will refer to him by in this post. This is the only picture of him I have on my computer--this whole 'blog' thing and downloading pictures on our computer is still really new to us--and I have most of our pictures packed. Anyway, my little guy is 11 today and I can't believe it. Time is just flying by. The picture is a great example of this son of mine. He loves to fly, to jump, to swim, to climb, to do anything. We have called him Monkey Boy since he was a toddler. He climbed on everything. So hence the name. He is full of love. He makes us laugh everyday. He was born literally at the end of my first marriage. This little guy was my saving grace. I would cuddle with him everyday and just love, love, love him. He took my mind off the stresses of what I was going through in LIFE. He helped me stay sane. He is a peacemaker {most of the time}. He loves Scouts and even wants to go tonight, on his B'day. He loves video games--{he isn't allowed to play too much} He hates doing chores {but what kid doesn't} He loves to do science projects with his great dad. He loves Allan so very much, they are buddies. He loves to watch movies. He is great at doing an English accent. A mom in class working with the reading group told me when it was his turn to read he totally did it in an english accent--she almost told him to stop, but said she couldn't because he was really good at it. He can remember lines to movies. He loves to sing. He loves music. He is a great big brother and a little brother {he is right in the middle}. He is my kid that is happy with almost nothing. He can have fun playing with a stick, a rock or a sock. He is very imaginative. He tells great stories. He loves to talk. He knows a lot of facts--and you can almost catch him at any time of the day saying 'Hey, Mom, did you know....". He wears glasses and is so handsome. He has gorgeous blue eyes that sometimes you can't see because of his glasses. He is my kid that is proud to say he has no cavities and hardly brushes his teeth and in spite of that the dentist says his teeth are GREAT!! {how embarassing for me, his mom, to state that little jewel!!} He is full of life. I couldn't be more proud of him. How can someone be so full of joy and sadness at the same time? Oh, that is right--I am his mom. So full of joy he is in my life, a little sad because he is growing up so fast!!! So, Monkey Boy--FLY, FLY, FLY!!! Happy Birthday!!

Friends make the "WORLD" go around.....

2009-02-11T11:59:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking a lot lately about FRIENDS. I have decided that I am the luckiest girl in the world because I have the greatest of friends. I have thought about what my life would be like if "so and so" wasn't a part of my life. I have learned that friends are the "icing" on the cake. Life is hard enough, could you imagine trying to get through this crazy life without your friends?

I recently went to Arizona because my dear friend, Sami and her hubby Cole saved their frequent flyer miles and got me a ticket. Sami won't fly over water...so she probably won't visit me in Hawaii. This was probably the last time I will see her in a long time. Friendship means the world to her and I. We talk almost everyday. It hurt to say goodbye to her on the curb at the airport. I took a deep breath as I walked into the airport that morning. I couldn't even turn around to watch her leave. I cried. Thank you Sami for the GREAT weekend. And a special thanks to Cole for the ticket.

My oldest daughter, CS, is having a hard time with us moving to Hawaii...because she doesn't want to leave all of her friends. I understand. As time draws closer I am getting the "pit in my stomach" feeling of leaving our home, our friends, all that we are comfortable with. I have told her many times that "true" friends won't allow the ocean between them to kill a friendship. I feel your pain, Pineapple Princess (her nickname).

I have friends. They give me great joy. I would love to name all of you and give you a huge hug...But I am afraid I would leave someone out. So, I will say this: consider yourself hugged and loved no matter what category you fall into!!! I have friends in: my mom, my sister, my sister in laws, my aunts, my cousins, my 2nd cousins. I have friends that I have known since 2nd grade. I have friends that I grew up with. I have friends that make me laugh and cry..at the same time. I have friends that teach me how to make bread. I have a friend that takes care of my little guy, JAG, and loves him like one of her own. I have friends who let me cry on their shoulder, laugh with them, vent to them. I have friends because we met through a "kid" activity. I have friends that I serve with in church. I have friends because of visiting teaching. I have friends that secretly do things for our family. I have friends that love me unconditionally--just for me. I have friends who have lost loved ones recently. I say to them--do not give up hope. One of the greatest tender mercies of our Savior is that he knows you and the pain you are suffering. He will not leave you comfortless. Turn to Him--he will carry you through this pain. I have friends who have little ones at home and feel like all you do is tend to their needs. I say to you all--please take care of yourself. Don't forget to do something little for yourself. Let others help you. Because that is what friends are for. I have friends who call me Mom. The greatest word in the english language. I have a friend that I grew up with and am now marry to....Kalani, you are my greatest friend.

This post is getting too long. I just wanted to let you all know that I LOVE YOU. I cherish the friendships we have made. I laugh with you. I cry with you. I worry about you. I am concerned for all of you and the struggles that you are all going through. I pray for you. I consider all of you some of my greatest blessings in my life. I wouldn't be who I am today without the influence and love you have all given me. I thank you. I will miss the daily interaction of those of you in Star. The waves as we pass each other on the street. I will miss coming to church in the Star 2nd ward. I will just miss you. But the greatest thing about technology is that we will just be a click away or a telephone call away. So thanks to all of you who make my world go around!!!

Thank you, Honey....

2009-01-27T13:40:00.000-08:00

This is Jensen Kalani Gilbert!!! Thanks to my sweet hubby, he figured out how to scan in pictures and was able to get this cute little girl onto to our computer. She hated being "bothered"--diaper change, blood tests, changing clothes etc. I would have to just put my hand on her to reassure her, that she was ok. You can tell by the comparison of my hand just how little she was. If you look close enough you can see her eye open a little bit. She was the sweetest, fiestiest little preemie!!! The doctors acutally told us she was considered a "micro-preemie" because she was under 26 weeks gestation and under 1lb 10oz (she was 1.9 lb). So there she is --our little angel!!!

Jensen Kalani Gilbert

2009-01-24T11:08:00.000-08:00

Eight years ago today I gave birth to my "little" angel, Jensen. When I say little I mean very little....she was 3 months early and only weighed 1 lb 9 oz. She was the first baby for me and Allan. We have no idea why I went into labor so early. They poked and prodded and tried to figure out why she came so early. Because of our faith in our Savior, we know He had a reason. She only lived for 3 1/2 weeks. Longer than we originally thought. For a very long time I blamed myself for her early delivery. What did I do to go into labor early? Did I do something wrong? Those of you who know me at all will know that I am the Queen of Guilt. I knew it had to be my fault, somehow. She was the sweetest little thing. She fought really hard to survive. But it was not meant to be. I actually have a harder time on this, her birthday, then on the day she passed away. Not sure why that it is. My heart misses her. I physically ache without her. Everyday I look around and feel like "somthing is missing". It is her presence. Oh, how I miss her. I look forward to the day that we are reunited. I am so grateful for the Plan of Salvation. The death of a child is the HARDEST thing to deal with. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. It hurts. It hurts really bad. But after a lot of counseling, prayer, fasting, and faith (I mean A LOT) I can finally get through the day without breaking down everytime I think of Jensen. I can laugh out loud when I think of something funny or cute she did. She was spunky, fiesty and just as cute as can be. We couldn't figure out how to scan her picture into the computer so that will have to wait. But here is a picture of her headstone. I guess it is kind of a "downer" to post that picture on my blog on her b'day...but I once heard a poem that talked about the "dash" in between the birth and death dates. In the little time Jensen was here she gave us so much love, hope and laughter. I loved every second I got to spend with her. She is my angel. She is my hope. She is my light at the end of the tunnel. Suddenly, death doesn't scare me. I know without a doubt she will be at the veil waiting for me....How can I be scared of that? The joyous reunion with my angel. WOW!!

Wrapped in the arms of LOVE......

2009-01-23T13:48:00.001-08:00

Is there anything as sweet as seeing one of your Kiddos with their Daddy? Oh, how I LOVE these guys.......

Families are Forever

2009-01-22T16:37:00.000-08:00

On June 2, 2007 we were sealed in the Boise, Id. temple. What a "Glorious" day it was. We had lot's of family and friends with us in the temple that day. I will never forget the many overwhelming emotions I had that day. This day was 8 years in the making. This day reminded me that our Heavenly Father anwers our prayers. I knew that my Father in Heaven knew me...and the desires of my little mortal heart. My dad has always said to me, "Heavenly Father knows the desires of our hearts". I know this to be true. I always felt a little incomplete without being sealed as an eternal family unit. My greatest dreams became a reality on this very special day.

I am reminded of this special day--EVERYDAY!!! When I look into the eyes of each of my children or my husband. I am reminded of how important eternal families are when one of my loved ones passes through the veil. My grandma Lewis just passed away earlier this month and what a comfort it is to know that families are forever. What a wonderful gift our Heavenly Father has given us. I appreciate the fact that He loves me and all of us "that" much that He offers us the chance to be with our families for an eternity!!!

Webster's Dictionary defines.....

2009-01-10T18:03:00.000-08:00

"SISTER" like this: a woman or girl as she is related to the other children of her parents. I define that word in a totally different way. I have been thinking about the word sister a lot this last week and decided that it has a deeper meaning. On January 1, 2009 I had to bid my little sister goodbye. We were in my mom's kitchen and Cori had to leave to go home and I was leaving very early the next morning. So this was goodbye.....and since we knew we were moving to Hawaii soon, we didn't know if we would see other again for a REALLY long time. So this goodbye was especially hard....How do you tell your little sister goodbye and not know when you are going to see her again? As we were standing there sobbing and holding each other we would whisper little things into each other's ears and then start giggling. Secrets between sisters. Little things that only we knew about and giggled. My 10 year old son was standing there and said: " I don't get it. How can you two be crying one minute and then laughing the next. We said almost at the same time, "because that is what sisters do!!!" So, there it is..the new definition of sister. One who can make you cry one minute and then laugh the next. One who can whisper sweet nothings into your ear and share secrets. One who can share sweet memories, impart wisdom, share talents, share lessons learned. Be a sweet example of motherhood and friendship. One who is a complete opposite of yourself but still have sooooo much in common. One who is there for you NO MATTER WHAT. One who is there when you bury one of your little ones. One who is there for you when your heart hurts so much you don't know how it can continue to beat. One who loves you unconditionally. One who patiently teaches you how to blog and load your new IPOD. What is a sister? Cori. She defines sisterhood. I thank you my sweet sister for all that you have done for me. I love you--more than you will ever know.

The Big Kahuna.......

2009-01-09T13:13:00.000-08:00

Reasons why I love Kalani.....

He loves me unconditionally
He loves our children unconditionally
He works so hard for his family
He is going back to school to improve his career
He treats me like a queen
He makes me laugh--all the time
We can sit and talk for hours, laugh at nothing and everything
We finish each other's sentences (drives our kids nuts)
Hearing him call me "Babe" melts my heart
I still get "butterflies" in my tummy when he walks into the room
He gives the Greatest hugs
He has the most gorgeous brown eyes with the longest eyelashes (the kind women want!)
His smile sends me over the moon
He bar-b-ques, he marinates, he cooks, he cleans, he takes care of kids--and me
He helps with homework
He encourages and supports me in ALL of my endeavors
He doesn't care if I spend a week or so with my mom and sister
THE LIST GOES ON FOREVER, ETERNITY, INFINITY.

I am so grateful for this man. This man whose Hawaiian name, Kalani, means HEAVEN. For that is what he is to me--HEAVEN. We have been best friends our whole life. We were even in nursery class together in church. He is my life. I don't know what I do without him. In the coming weeks as we prepare this HUGE move to Hawaii, I will get out of hand with stress and craziness and he will be there calling me Babe and chasing away my fears and stress. All he has to do is smile that wonderful smile and I will melt like I did when I was 16. Thank you for being my friend, my eternal love, my husband, my king, my HEAVEN!!!

Have you ever.....?

2009-01-06T17:54:00.000-08:00

Had one of "those" days? The kind that start off kind of bad and then gradually get's worse and worse....and then when you think it can't get any worse, it suddenly changes into a totally FANTASTIC day? That is what kind of day I had today. It didn't start off too great, then got a little bit worse each hour. Then at about 1:30 it totally changed directions!!! I got a call today from one of my dearest friends. Adie. WOW!!! We've known each other for over 20 years!! (yes I said 20!). We had so much fun being in the same ward together. People would say, "Adie and Katie" I'm not sure which one is which, but there they are. It was so fun!!! We haven't seen each other for 10+ years and she totally surprised me and stopped to see me after dropping her daughter off at college. It was so sweet to see her and spend a couple of hours updating each other on our lives. We could have used 10 more hours to just talk and talk but she needed to get home. I forgot how much I miss hanging out with her. Thank you so much Adie, for turning my day into a fantastic day. Friends are so wonderful and I am so blessed to have the greatest friends in the universe!!

A.L.O.H.A.

2009-01-05T16:10:00.000-08:00

In the Hawaiian language the word "Aloha" means hello and goodbye...... In about a month or so we will be saying that and meaning the same thing....Goodbye to Star, Id. and Hello to the BIG ISLAND of Hawaii...........Allan Kalani Gilbert has been officially accepted to the University of Hawaii!!!! Congratulations, my love. We are going over there so Allan can go to nursing school using Hawaiian grant money. I will keep you posted on things as they develop!!! I am so proud of Kalani. He works so hard and does so much for our family and he is about to work even harder.!!!! Way to go!!!!!

2008-12-30T17:27:00.000-08:00

Some of my GREATEST blessings call me Mom.......

Just hangin' out

2008-12-30T14:33:00.000-08:00

Welcome to our blog!!

This is my first attempt to blog, so bear with me. My wonderful sister and husband think I am going to be able to blog in "all of my spare time". Heehee. So here we go. Instead of using the kids full names I will use their initals...This is K and J at Grandma's home. Christmas 2008. We are just hanging out with cousins, g'ma, aunts and uncles, eating and playing games. Fun, Fun!!! Daddy and T are back at home and we miss them. Can't wait to get home this weekend. Hi, guys!!!!